Today during our worship service I was ruined. I was ruined by love. It all started with a picture God showed me as I was praying with the Worship Team before the service. In the picture, I saw the Mountain of the Lord, and flowing from it was a very large waterfall. What made the waterfall so unique was that it was very colorful, not just clear water, there were many, many colors. The water flowed into a green. lush valley where people were waiting near the river bank. Some of them held very large buckets, others large vases, others smaller containers, but they all went to the river and filled their containers with the water, the Living Water of God. As I looked at the water, in it were all different kinds of jewels. They were very colorful, all varying in size and shape. I believe these jewels represented what God wanted to impart to His children this morning — love, grace, joy, healing, peace, etc. As those who had come filled up their containers and went on their way, I noticed there were others who were literally laying down near the bank of the river. They looked tired, worn out, beaten down, out of strength. It was all they could do to muster up enough strength to put their cupped hands in the river and grab some water to drink.
It was then the Lord began to speak to me that there are those who do not feel like they have the strength to partake of everything the Lord has for them, but He wants them to know that, similar to the woman who reached out to touch the hem of His garment and was healed, if we will simply lay down near the bank of the river and reach down into His Living Water, even the amount we grab with our cupped hands will be all that we need for our moment of weakness. Sometimes all we need is a taste of His goodness to realize the magnitude of it. To even drink a little is better than not drinking at all.
Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see— how good God is!
Blessed are you who run to him. (Psalm 34:8-Message)
I shared this revelation with the Worship Team and went out to sing. Near the end of the set, our worship leader went into a prophetic song and began to sing over the congregation God’s heart of love towards us. It was at that moment that I was ruined by love. You see, I haven’t been able to hear the voice of the Lord concerning His heart towards me for some time. I know He is always speaking, but due to lies that I have believed and false agreements I’ve entered into about myself, I wasn’t hearing. Or maybe I was hearing but simply couldn’t believe that all of those thoughts towards me were actually mine to receive. Today I heard clearly. He spoke. I was ruined by love. He said:
You are lovely.
You are beautiful.
You captivate my heart.
I died just for you.
I chose you.
I will never leave you.
Oh, He said so much more! But I was ruined, lost in His love, and could do nothing more than weep.Our Pastor preached on how God was a personal God and wanted to meet us today in a very personal way. He is so faithful to meet us exactly where we need Him to. I’ve been longing for a deeper revelation of His love towards me. My soul has been crying out for love, and love met me today.