Desert – a dry, barren area of land, especially one covered with sand, that is characteristically desolate, waterless, and without vegetation.
The Lord will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
Have you ever walked through seasons where you’ve felt alone? I can be in a room full of people who I know and love, and yet I sometimes feel very alone. I often feel abandoned, lost and afraid. I’ve questioned where God is, because I cannot feel His presence. And I’ve questioned my own heart. Is there sin in my life that has caused Him to turn His face from mine? I often look at the dry and barren seasons in my life as a bad thing. In my eyes, it is the place where I am taken when I don’t perform “up to par”, or when I disappoint someone, or when perhaps I’ve stepped outside of the will of God. I feel as if I’ve done something bad and therefore I am banished to the corner, left alone with no one to care about me.
I have to admit that 90% of the time I am ruled by my emotions and feelings. If I don’t feel loved, I am not loved. If I don’t feel beautiful, I am not beautiful. If I don’t feel God with me, then He’s not. But I am learning that living my life based on how I feel as opposed to what the truth of scripture says is very tiring. I do not want to be rooted in feelings and emotions. I want to be rooted in the truth of God and what He says about me. It’s impossible to continually abide in God’s presence when you cannot separate what is truth from what is a lie, based on your own feelings.
It’s very hard to be walking in the desert, when those around you are flowing in the river. I want to jump in and splash around so much, but there is something holding me back. Perhaps it’s fear of man. Perhaps it’s fear of myself. Or perhaps it’s fear of going to the next level with God. But He has been teaching me to embrace these seasons in my life. It’s a walk of faith, believing that He is with me no matter how I feel. He promised that He would never leave me nor forsake me — He will never turn His back on me, no matter what! I liken the desert to a state of mind rather than a state of being. I believe that perspective and how I choose to look at my circumstances has everything to do with how fast I make my way out of the desert.
I believe God uses these times of spiritual dryness to draw us closer to Him. If it wasn’t for the desert, I believe we would not be hungering and thirsting for Him at the level that we are. If we could always feel His touch, then would we really seek after more? If our river never ran dry, would we seek to be filled? God promises that we will find Him when wendiligently seek Him out.
You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.
*This is Days 24 of a 31 day series on “Abiding”. You can find all of my posts in this series here. And be sure to stop by some of the other 31Dayers. Over 700 bloggers have linked up so far! There is something for everyone!