I am a doer by nature. Constantly on the go. Running here and there. Barely stopping to eat most days. For some reason, I feel better about myself when I am doing something. Oh, I give myself plenty of down time, but then when I go to bed at night I feel guilty that I didn’t accomplish everything that was on my list. (A perfect place to put a plug in for Emily’s book, Grace for the Good Girl. It’s changing me.)
My heart longs to abide, to remain connected to the Vine, but it’s hard for me to stop and be still in His presence. Even while sitting before the King of Kings, I still feel like I should be doing something for Him.
I was made to live continually in the light of His presence. He calls me to abide with Him, to be still and know. But it doesn’t come naturally to me, this being still. It’s not just a matter of slowing down the body physically. But it’s intentionally slowing down the mind. Turning off the voices of tasks left undone, of lies that say “you should have”, or “you should be”. To continually abide in His presence, I must focus my mind, will and emotions on the Lord.
I have labeled myself “a Martha with a heart like Mary”. Oh how I long to just be still. To stop. But I am so easily distracted by the cares of this world. Yet I hear Him calling me to come.
My beloved speaks and says to me: “Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away.” (Song of Solomon 2:1o)
The Lord longs to spend time with you, His Beloved One. He is calling you to come away, to leave your worries and cares behind, to be with Him. But to continually abide in His presence takes practice. We are still works in progress. Aren’t you grateful that He still allows us to come, with cluttered minds and and anxious hearts?
Learning to be still so that I can abide.
*This is Day 4 of a 31 day series on “Abiding”. You can find all of my posts in this series here. And be sure to stop by some of the other 31Dayers. Over 700 bloggers have linked up so far! There is something for everyone!