Thank you for stopping by. Today is week 1 of our Made to Crave journey. I am joining Venessa at Our Journey of Love as we link up to encourage one another in our desire to get healthy in 2012. If you wrote a post, be sure to link up below. Venessa and I are using the same link code, so the links should show up on both blogs. And if you are visiting, we are thankful you are here. Feel free to interact with us in the comments.
Using Lysa Terkeurst’s book as our guide, we have decided that we would read one chapter a week. Well, I am on Chapter 5. But I plan to go back and re-read chapters each week. There is so much depth and insight and I really want to slow down and take time to absorb it all, asking God for revelation. Some weeks, I may note quote the book at all. Just so you know. I am realizing how much of a personal journey this will be, or all of us. We won’t all walk it the same, but we can walk it together.
Change is Hard.
It’s the “want to”…really wanting to make changes and deciding that the results of those changes are worth the sacrifice. – Made to Crave
“Am I ready to make this change?”
In all honesty, I am not sure. Oh, I want to be healthy. But I am finding out how much I hide behind food. Food is comfort to me. It comes in all of it’s goodness and warmth and pretends to fill voids deep within my heart that were only meant to be filled by God Himself.
I have had to ask myself some hard questions this week:
- Am I willing to crucify my cravings on the alter?
- Am I willing to invite God into this area of my life?
- Am I willing to sacrifice and work hard to fulfill my desire to be healthy?
- Am I willing to give permission to others to ask me the hard questions?
- Am I willing to change?
Getting healthy isn’t just about losing weight. In reality, it’s probably the last thing on my list. I want to be a healthy person all the way around — spiritually, physically and mentally. But I don’t think I’ve ever asked God to give me the desire to be healthy. It’s only WITH GOD that I will be empowered to make the changes necessary to be the person I want to be.
I cannot do this in my own strength.
I was created to crave. But I was created to Crave God. Inside the soul of every person is a longing for the Living God. When my craving for God goes unmet, I set myself up to allow other things, other counterfeits, to come in and try to fill me up. However, they only leave me empty and yearning for more.
“Cravings. Are they a curse or a blessing? The answer to that depends on what we’re craving. And what we’re craving will always depend on whatever we’re consuming — the object of our desire or God and His truth.” – Made to Crave.
I am broken and hurting.
I had to look long and hard this week at the emotional baggage I carry, both past and present. And said emotional baggage causes me to make unhealthy choices, as I strive to have my emotional needs met. This journey will be one of renewal and introspection for me, as I allow God to come and fully make my heart alive to Him again.
It seems so easy, doesn’t it? Then why is it so hard?
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it.
Instead, I do what I hate. (Romans 7:15)
My flesh cries out to be filled. My heart longs for God. But these two things collide and most often, my flesh wins. I like to give myself these excuses:
“I’m good in every other area”.
“I make so many sacrifices already.”
“I need treats as comfort int this season of life; I’ll deal with my issues later.
“I just can’t give this up.”
And then there’s the “guilt trip” I put on myself every time I cave and give in to satisfying my flesh. And thus the vicious, downward spiral into more unhealthy eating and more guilt trips, with candy bars to boot, continues.
It’s not working too well though. This flesh is just plain tired, achy and grumpy. Something has to change!
I’m going to have a deep, heart to heart talk with God this week and ask Him to give me the desire to make the changes. It’s going to cost me. But I think that I am worth it! Until I have that desire, I am not sure I will be motivated to do anything.
How about you? How are you doing? Do you have the desire to make the changes you need to make to get healthy? If not, let’s ask Him together.
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If you wrote a post, will you link up below? And be sure and visit Venessa to read her thoughts on Chapter 1.