I am so excited to have Nikki of Simplystriving guest posting today! Nikki is my February Inspired Blogger. She has a contagious heart for the Lord. I hope you will pop over to Nikki’s blog and say hello, if you haven’t already.
The full moon hangs heavy on the horizon. It burns amber, gleaming through the thin clouds trying to conceal its beauty. My breath escapes me as I wind around the lake, its reflection setting the water’s surface ablaze. I’m completely captivated as I realize,
The very God that hung this moon
Whose hand spun it into orbit
is jealous for me.
The story in Exodus is still fresh in my mind. The Israelites being led to the Promised Land. They were God’s chosen people. It seems understandable — Jehovah being jealous over idols they couldn’t give up. And I breeze easily over the verses.
“You must not bow down to them or worship them, for I, the Lord your God am a jealous God who will not tolerate your affection for any other gods.” (Exodus 20:5 NLT)
Whenever I’m feeling too stubborn for my own skin, I think of them. Of these people who were lavished upon. Provided for. Healed simply by asking. Who were promised a better life. Ones who saw God’s miraculous deeds daily. Yet God had to swoon them to gain their love, to show them who He really was. Yes. Completely understandable. I’d be jealous, too.
It was my reading the following day that stopped me dead in my tracks.
“You must worship no other gods, for the Lord, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about His relationship with you.” (Exodus 34:14 NLT)
I finally had to accept it. For God’s name, El Qanna, wouldn’t exist if it weren’t for all people. For Israelites. For Egyptians. For you. For me. And my heart warms from another example.
Oh, how He loves us.
He desires us so much He gets jealous when something comes before our relationship with Him. He wants us. Desperately. I don’t know about you, but I kinda like it. Being loved liked that.
Friends, I want to love Him like that. For I need Him. Desperately. And I can spend this life, admiring the view, learning to love Him jealously. Oh yes, He’s worthy of love like that.
So I ask myself: Is anything obstructing me from the relationship He wants with me? What are my idols? I’m not a frilly girl. I’m perfectly content with what I’ve been blessed with. If He asked me to give up any possessions tomorrow, I can’t think of one I’d have a hard time handing over.
Except maybe…my mind travels down the list of possible suspects:
- The internet/convenience
- My family
- Certain foods
- The feeling of acceptance
My heart hurts to think I could be making my Redeemer jealous.
He deserves so much better than me.
But it’s me He wants. And I’ll do what it takes to make sure He gets me. I will keep striving to ensure He’s my first love. My top priority. I can love Him like that. Can you?
How about you? Are you making Him jealous? What idols are you harboring? He deserves you, too. Let’s strive to keep Him above all else together.
Thanks for sharing your time with me. And thank you, Barbie, for allowing me to share my heart here. You bless me so.
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Nikki is a loved wife, blessed mom, mere child saved by grace who strives daily to live like she deserves it. Before she was blessed with her role as a mother, her favorite jobs included teaching piano and working in interior design. She has a hard time saying no to peanut butter and chocolate and if you meet for coffee, a chai tea latte will be in her cup. She journals her thoughts on a blog titled Simplystriving. There you will find her journey of seeking joy in the everyday while simply striving to become all that God has made her to be. You can find her fun tips and tricks from decorating to time management on her Facebook Page. If you’d like to keep apprised of her daily comings and goings, you may follower her on Twitter.