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Five Minute Friday: Enough

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Today I am joining in the 5 Minute Friday where we are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.  No editing or backtracking necessary.  No need to be perfect.  Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Enough

Most days, I do not feel like I am enough.  I can never seem to keep my home clean.  The laundry is piling up, and clean clothes are now overflowing out of laundry baskets.  I noticed that the base boards in my bathroom were black from all of the dirt and grim that hasn’t been clean in what seems like forever.  There are science projects growing in the back of my refrigerator, and my vacuum has not seen the light of day in over a month.

And I yell at my children.  And I know that I do.  I get frustrated and angry and instead of getting on my knees before the Father and asking for wisdom I react.  And I do not give my husband the time and attention he deserves.  Lately it’s been hard.  I’ve been weighted down and over-emotional and He is working hard and striving to make enough money to provide for our family.

I have good intentions to meal plan and grocery shop every week.  The school year is beginning and I have yet to purchase my daughter’s curriculum.  I fear the word organization as I can’t ever seem to keep anything organized for more than an hour.

I don’t feel as if I am enough most days.  I am tired, stressed, upset and emotional.  And I’ve had enough of that behavior.

On days like today, when all I can see is my lack, I must pull on the One who is enough, full of grace and forgiveness. In my weakness, He is strong.

Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.  (2 Corinthians 12:9)

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I am sorry if this post is a little bit of a downer.  I’m just being real.  I do know where my strength comes from.  Always looking up!

Five Minute Friday

43 Comments

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    Alia Joy
    July 20, 2012 at 1:05 am

    I totally get it. My post came out kinda a downer but I know the truth as well. Sometimes we just need a reminder. Thanks.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:48 am

      After reading all of the responses I realize so many are feeling this way. We can link shields and build one another up. I think I will be signing up for one of those scheduled home cleaning things through the email. I need a reminder to clean those things I forget to clean.

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    Laura @ Pruning Princesses
    July 20, 2012 at 3:40 am

    Not a downer. A relief. To know I am not the only one who doesn’t do it all. Who feels the lack. Thank you.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:45 am

      Bless you Laura and thanks for stopping by today!

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    Nita
    July 20, 2012 at 4:02 am

    Wow. Not really a downer, just a little more serious. Two of us doing that today. Who would’ve thought? You’re right, there are days we don’t feel like we have enough of anything but He has enough, and will pull us through. Sometimes He pulls us kicking and screaming, but he’s always there for us. I love the word picture of your life. Laundry piling up? Sometimes I think my bathroom (which is where my laundry lands until wash day) is nothing but a dirty clothes basket.

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    Ro elliott
    July 20, 2012 at 6:01 am

    we are never enough but He is…always there to fill into holes in our lives. and I have not ordered my daughter’s curriculum either…I think I am in denial:) blessings as the Great I Am fills you with His love.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:41 am

      Ha! I am homeschooling my 7th grader while working full time. What am I doing? What I feel God has asked me. I will be using mostly LifePac curriculum and Teaching Textbooks for math. I am going to order the Science kit today, Lord willing!

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    Lori Poppinga
    July 20, 2012 at 6:11 am

    Ah yes…real…so good to get it out in the open…and know that others feel this way too…and God is all we need. Keep up the God work. Stopped over from Lisa-Jo’s.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:40 am

      Thank you for stopping by Lori!

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    Nikki
    July 20, 2012 at 6:58 am

    What is worth being if you can’t be real, Barbie. I see your heart here. I see how it longs for Him to do what you can’t. Fill all that’s empty. What a wise mama. And I can’t think of a greater lesson for your children to learn — this lesson of learning to lean on Him. For He will always be enough. even when we can’t…
    Hugs to you, friend! Praying like mad…

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:40 am

      Thank you so much my friend. I pray that what I do, or don’t do, speaks volumes to my children about His grace, His love, His provision. Thanks for your prayers. Things are turning around. I will email you later!

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    joyfullyinhim
    July 20, 2012 at 6:58 am

    Oh, such a beautiful soul you are my friend! Your words encouraged me this morning through your bravery to be real and allow His beauty and truth to be displayed through you. You are so loved!!

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:39 am

      Thank you my friend. I am realizing that my real life gives life to others. Imagine that! Have a beautiful day!

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    Amy in Wanderland
    July 20, 2012 at 7:07 am

    Great post. I wondered how I could possibly write about this topic without being a downer, and I never figured it out. Oh well, we can’t be witty and charming and upbeat with EVERY post, now can we? Praying for you. <3

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:38 am

      So true! He loves me, dirty baseboards and all. And I am enough!

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    Child of God
    July 20, 2012 at 7:57 am

    Romans 3:10
    As it is written: “None is righteous, no, not one;

    Thanks for being real Barbie. We all fail and it is only through Jesus that we are made right. Keep looking to Him sister, for as you know, it is only in Him that you will find peace, joy and complete fulfillment.

    Hugs,
    <

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:38 am

      Truth. Leaning on the everlasting arms of my Savior today!

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    Clover Willison
    July 20, 2012 at 8:23 am

    Wonderful post Barbie, not a downer but the truth. HE knows what is in our hearts and HE sees our real. I have been reading through your blog. Give yourself some grace sweet lady. It sounds like you are busy doing bigger work than folding laundry and wiping baseboards. HIS love and power will prevail allowing you to see that all you are doing is enough. Beautiful verse you selected. Thank you for your post and your blog. Was great to share a cup of coffee this morning.

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    bethinnc
    July 20, 2012 at 8:52 am

    Oh Barbie. I’m glad to know my baseboards and refrigerator are not alone. Ha. Life takes time. ;-). I’m so glad He loves us. Love you!

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:37 am

      I was in sheer disgust by the site of it. I think I need to sign up for the Fly Lady or some type of cleaning plan that will remind me to do those things! Love you my friend!

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    Michele-Lyn
    July 20, 2012 at 9:50 am

    I love you being real. It doesn’t make me feel down at all. Quite the contrary. We are family in God and we can come along side each other — together in Him we journey — we are strong.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:36 am

      So true. I love you my friend. Praying your heart is alive with His fullness today!

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    Meghan Carver
    July 20, 2012 at 11:07 am

    Thank you for being real. I’m right there with you…. Praying for you today.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 11:36 am

      Thank you Meghan!

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    Barbie
    July 20, 2012 at 11:37 am

    Thank you so much Clover for stopping by and encouraging my heart today. It was so refreshing!

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    Barbie
    July 20, 2012 at 11:42 am

    I know the feeling. I keep telling my children God gave them legs so they can bring their laundry down. You would figure at 18, 12 and 9 they could do it. Oh life as a mom. I so appreciate your visit today and hope you will return!

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    Diana Denis
    July 20, 2012 at 12:06 pm

    This was NOT a downer. It’s a great reminder to keep my eyes up and not on me. I struggle in some of the same areas and God is gracious enough to cover me in His grace too. #selah we are truly blessed…we have the Word of the living God to wash and encourage us daily. And, we have eachother! So blessed to share this community with you Barbara. Be blessed today and always.

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 5:44 pm

      Thank you so much Diana for your encouragement today!

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    Venessa
    July 20, 2012 at 12:09 pm

    Be real! We have to be otherwise we forget to look up!

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 5:43 pm

      So true! Thanks for that reminder Venessa!

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    Elizabeth@Transitional-Woman
    July 20, 2012 at 1:55 pm

    As I read this, the verse you referenced was going through my mind. Thanks for sharing what you were feeling. Visiting from Five Minute Friday

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 5:40 pm

      Thank you Elizabeth for stopping by today!

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    TereasaM
    July 20, 2012 at 2:18 pm

    (((((Big Hugs))))) Barbie, I am so sorry things are hard now and you are feeling so down. I wish I could fly across the continent and help you out. We need friends, girl. Friends! We aren’t meant to do this alone. Praying for you to have what you need! (hey- I used the same verse in my post today!)

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 5:39 pm

      Thank you my sweet friend. I wish I could give you a hug as well. I did receive your email and will take the time to respond soon! 🙂

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    Lea
    July 20, 2012 at 2:59 pm

    Oh, bless your heart! We’ve all felt that we were not enough in some area(s) but He is strong in our weaknesses and stands ready to pick us up and fill our cups to overflowing. If it’s organization, schooling, laundry, emotions, etc, HE is there and I pray you feel His presence in a mighty way in the days ahead. You are a blessing to many!! Hugs!

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      Barbie
      July 20, 2012 at 5:39 pm

      Thank you Lea! He is with me. I’m learning to rest in His overwhelming love.

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    Laura Rath
    July 20, 2012 at 8:19 pm

    Hi Barbie,
    I always appreciate your honesty and transparency, so I didn’t read this as a downer at all. I think if we’re honest with ourselves, we can admit we all have times when we feel like this. I know I do. And like you, I look to Him for my strength (and energy, patience, and everything else I need). He knows what we can handle and how much we can take, long before we know it of ourselves. I take comfort in that and find strength.

    Blessings to you,
    Laura

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    path of treasure
    July 20, 2012 at 10:41 pm

    I sure prefer real. I’d feel right at home with your baskets of clean laundry and grime in the bathroom baseboards. I totally get it. And yelled at my kids? Never! (Not!) 🙂

    And I think… knowing how much we are NOT enough gives Him room to come in and do something. Maybe we’re supposed to remember this… that we are not enough, so that we can never forget that He is enough. Or something like that.

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    Debbie Petras
    July 21, 2012 at 5:46 am

    Sometimes life can seem so overwhelming. You are being honest and I love that. The important thing that you end this post with is you know where to go when you feel this way. Run to the Lord. He is your rock. He is the solution. Despite the challenges, He will get you through Barbie.

    Praying for you friend.

    Blessings and love,
    Debbie

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    Tammy Perlmutter
    July 21, 2012 at 8:00 am

    Hey, Barbie! I feel ya, sister! Sometimes all I can do is tell myself that tears may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning.

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    Stacy
    July 21, 2012 at 8:19 pm

    I completely understand. I could have written each word.

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    Eileen
    July 22, 2012 at 12:31 pm

    Thank you for being real, Barbie. I can so relate.

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    alisa hope
    July 22, 2012 at 1:50 pm

    Beautiful! I love how you say, “I pull on the One who is enough.” Instead of forcing a smile or rolling up my sleaves, I can pull on Jesus and He will give me a smile and strength to continue!

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