I haven’t had many words to share with you lately. With the juggling of work, ministry, family and homeschooling, I have had to allow myself time to step back and wait for God to speak. I never want to force my writing here. I love when God speaks clearly to me and gives me the words that I hope will encourage you.
Today I was sitting in the prayer room during our staff set. Normally, I would open my computer and log into YouVersion to catch up on my Bible reading plans. Or, I would continue reading the current book that I am working through. But today I decided to just sit and look at Jesus.
My heart has been heavy with the weight of all that has happened in the last few days in the world. Storms, tornados, lives lost. It’s hard sometimes to take it all in. I purposefully choose not to watch the news, or read too much, because my heart is so vulnerable. I am afraid that if I spend too much time looking at the circumstances surrounding me, that I will lose sight of Jesus in the midst of it.
As I sat in the prayer room today to look at Him, a song came forth from the worship on the stream about giving our hearts to God, loving Him completely and walking in love. As I sang the words, and waited for my heart to feel what I so desperately longed to feel, I saw myself, with arms outstretched before the Throne of God. In my hands I carried my heart. It was small in comparison to the size of my hands. I almost felt ashamed that I was bringing such a small heart before a big God. As I continued to sing and pray, I say a stream of colors come down like a waterfall and pour over my heart. I immediately connected this stream of color with the love of God. It was as if liquid love was being poured into my heart and I saw my heart grow in size.
and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:19)
In order for my heart to grow in love, I must know the giver of love. As I sat and reflected on the encounter that I had just had with God, I realized how much I need to be filled with God, to be filled with His love, so that I can pour out onto a world around me who needs a touch from Him. It really is all about the love of God. The more time I sit and gaze at Him, the more I am filled with His love. I cannot make my heart grow. Only God, through His love, can grow my heart.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
Are you taking time to sit and look at Jesus? What is it that you see? How is God growing your heart with His love? I would love it if you would share with me in the comments below.