Today I am joining Lisa-Jo and a beautiful community of writers at the Five Minute Friday where we are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes for the joy of writing. No editing or backtracking necessary. No need to be perfect. This is where I get to write, letting it all go, allowing the words tucked away deep inside my heart to find their voice.
It’s been a long, grueling four months. I wrote my last FMF post in February. I needed to step away from writing. I needed to tuck myself under the shadow of His wings and let Him pull me closer. And in the process, I feel as if I’ve lost myself, my voice, my passion and my desire for writing. I thought perhaps I’d take a couple of months off, only posting over the weekend, allowing my blog to flow with the inspiring words of others through my Featured Friends on Wednesdays. But it’s been five long months. And this one who feels lost, she doesn’t now how to find her way back. And when she does manage to find the words again, she doesn’t know what it will be like. Will it be the same? Probably not. It will most likely be different, and that scares me a little bit.
I miss going to bed at night with words swirling around in my head. I miss waking up, rushing for the pen to jot down the words before they are lost. I miss responding to blog comments right away, and reading your blogs. I miss writing. I miss connecting. I miss you.
However, I am realizing that it’s only when we allow ourselves to be lost, that we can truly be found. And in this season of still, even though there’s been heartache and battles fought along the way, my Savior, He has found me.
I would give it all up for Him. I would. I am finding is that as I bring my lost self before His throne of grace, He is opening my eyes to the reality that is all around me. He is opening up my heart to receive His love for me in greater ways. He is opening up my mind to receive His words, and His alone, to be used for purposes not my own.
When you are lost, you long to be found. And He has found me.
I may feel lost in this big world of blogging. But one thing I know for sure, my Jesus looks for me. His eyes are ever on me. He sings over me with joy and smiles at the thought of me. Yes the words are slow, lost somewhere in the deepest parts of my mind and heart, but I’ve been found my Him and He will not let me go.
It’s been a long four months since my last Five Minute Friday post. It’s good to be back! I look forward to visiting your blogs and reading your encouraging words.
Linking up with Lisa-Jo and a beautiful community over at the Five Minute Friday. Join us?