My first impression of Much-Afraid is that she is, in fact, much afraid. Her sole focus is on her disfiguring disabilities, and the fact that she has been tormented and controlled her entire life by those in her own family. This has caused her to shrink back from pursing a life of freedom and joy. She lacks self esteem, nor does she believe that there is anyone in the world who loves her for who she is. She longs to escape the clutches of her relatives, but fears her short comings would only set her back.
The Shepherd has been waiting a long time to hear Much-Afraid finally express her desire to go with Him to the High Places. However, even after admitting her desire, Much-Afraid again focused on her limitations, fearing she could never make it.
The Shepherd was willing to do everything He could to move her from fear and immobilization to leaping freely upon the High Places.
Only she had to be changed completely, from the inside out, never to be the same again. It would cost her everything in return.
She must be willing to endure the hurt and pain associated with loving and being loved.
The Shepherd waited until she was ready, until she asked for the seed of love to be planted into her heart. He will never force His love on us. He waits until we long for Him, until we beckon for Him to come.
Once her plan to go with Him to the High Places was solidified, He asked her to not tell anyone, because a journey to the High Places needs to be a secret matter.
She fell asleep, dreaming of running away with Him to the High Places.
Going from the known to the unknown is often very frightening. The idea of being changed though difficulty and danger can make us tremble. However, God promises that He will help us and that His Word will make the necessary provisions in our hearts so we can walk the way He chooses for us.
Behold God, my salvation! I will trust and not be afraid, for the Lord God is my strength and song; yes, He has become my salvation.” (Isaiah 12:2 AMP)
I do want to serve You, precious Lord. Still my trembling heart in Your loving hand. Quiet any anger when things don’t go my way. Enlarge my heart to embrace Your choices, knowing Your love paves the way.
Thoughts To Ponder
What can you identify with most about Much-Afraid? Have you had to count the cost of the pain of love? How have you allowed yourself to surrender to God’s will and leave fear behind?