As 2014 comes to a close, I’ve been reflecting on all that 2014 held for me. As hard as it is to admit, I haven’t been living life to the fullest. When I look back over my year, and on many of the things I’ve written over the last several months, my year has been marked by uncertainty, heartache, loss, depression and just a feeling of mundaneness and blah.
I’ve allowed my life to be led by my circumstances, as opposed to allowing God to use my circumstances to change me for the better. With each blow or disappointment, I crawled further into a hole of despair. I think I tried to ignore my feelings, pushing them down deep into my heart, fearing that if I truly admitted how I felt about my life I would be judged for not living from a place of complete dependance on God.
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I do not want to walk into the new year looking at my lack. I don’t want to look at unfulfilled dreams, disappointments, fears, failures and all of those things that keep me up at night. I want to step into the new year full of hope that my life can change and that this year can and will be lived to the fullest.
I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.
(John 10:10 ESV)
I wasn’t sure I would have a “One Word” focus this year. As December came, I began asking and praying, and then I waited. I was pretty certain that again there would be no word focus this year, so I began to jot down a few goals in order to keep myself focused on a few things. I asked some friends to pray for me, that if God had a word for me for the coming year, that He would reveal it to my heart. That very same hour, after I requested prayer for the last time, I heard this phrase drop into my heart,
This is not a word that I would have picked for myself. It’s a word that, although I see and read the scripture and shake my head and think to myself how I’ve arrived at this place of being content, I know otherwise. You see, I’ve allowed myself to become very discontent with my life. I spend too much time focusing on my lack, what’s not happening, who’s not meeting my needs, how much money I don’t have, the beautiful home I wish I had, etc. and so on. Can you relate?
Isn’t it just like God to stretch us beyond what we think we are capable of while bringing us to a place of greater depth and joy in Him?
to be satisfied with a certain level of achievement, good fortune, etc., and not wishing for more.
This coming year, as I allow God to teach me about living a content-filled life, I will be focusing on the “not wishing for more” part. I am tired of looking at my lack and desiring other things, or that things would be different.
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How about you my friend? Have you picked a One Word for 2015? Would you share it with me in the comments, or share a goal that you have for the coming year.
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Happy New Year!