When You Wane In Your Commitment // Glimpses Link Up
It’s Sunday night and I’m thoroughly exhausted. I’ve been on the go all day until about 8:30PM. We had our last Christmas celebration with family and after church I had errands to run, food to make and a house to clean. The Plantar Fasciitis in my left heel is unbearable. I’m thankful for some time to sit, to connect, to read, and just write a little bit.
When my OneWord focus came to me near the end of December, I new it was going to be a challenge. After all, when you have a word like “Commit” and you falter just a little bit, the enemy has a field day.
January 1st came and I was so full of energy. I got up early to read the first day in my chronological journey of The Message Bible, and got my Declutter 365 off to a great start.
January 2nd was a good day. I was on track with my reading and stayed on target with my 15 minute decluttering missions.
January 3rd found me exhausted and really having to push through to get up early to read. There was no decluttering on that day.
January 4th and 5th were hard….just plain hard. I read, but my mind wasn’t absorbing the material. Declutter? No, I was too tired.
After those days, I completely waned in my commitments. I was spent, out of energy and just plain uncommitted.
I allowed the enemy to beat me up for a day or so and then I turned to my friends in the Facebook group I created to read chronologically though the Message. They embraced me, faults and all, and helped me to realize that this is not a race. There are going to be days where I may not feel as though I’m doing anything that I’m supposed to be doing. It may be mechanical, this daily reading. The decluttering may be overwhelming, but I have to keep going. Because when you commit to something, it doesn’t mean things will go perfectly.
I believe commitment is an attitude of the heart. And sometimes our heart can still long for something even though our mind and actions don’t yet follow. I was so afraid to take on this word for the year because I am so hard on myself when I perform less than perfectly. But it doesn’t mean that I’m not committed. This life is not about performance. It’s a journey.
In marriage, we struggle to agree, to put the other first, but we are still committed.
In child rearing, we are stretched and often feel unqualified, but we are still committed.
In life, we are often thrown off path, but we are still committed to finish the race.
I may get knocked down,
but commitment causes me to rise back up again out of the ashes.
I may get discouraged,
but commitment causes me to reach down deep for the light of His hope.
I may get lazy in attitude,
but commitment stirs my heart to repentance and helps me begin again.
So today, on January 9th, I’m beginning again. My word this year is COMMIT and I am taking two steps forward, after having taken several back, and allowing Him to guide me back to the commitments I made just one weak ago.
And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.
261. New Year’s movie night with my husband and son.
262. Sleeping in on New Year’s Day.
263. Setting up sell and donate stations for my Declutter365
264. Getting started on homeschool planning for 2nd semester
265. Enjoying a new way to read the Word of God via The Message Bible
266. He dances over me with joy!
267. $2 movie tickets. Thank you T-Mobile Tuesdays!
268. A dentist willing to allow payments for my root canal (not fun!)
269. He is captivated by just one glance of my eye.
270. The wonder of how joy and heartache can co-exit.
It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
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