A Working Mom’s Homeschool Life: F – Fear of Failure
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I remember when my children were younger and I worked 50 hours a week in San Francisco as a legal secretary, I thought I would never be a homeschooling mom. After all, how does one work outside the home so many hours and actually make homeschooling work?
Fast forward 20 years and here I am, a homeschool mom working outside the home 40 hours a week. Back when I first felt the Lord leading us to pull our son out of school, I was so fearful that I would mess up my child. I feared he would become an anti-social hermit, locked up in the house all day. I was worried that I wouldn’t be able to provide him a proper education. I was fearful that he would resent us for making this decision.
I am sure all homeschooling moms have fears from time to time for various reasons. But I think that fear is greater when your children have been in public school their whole life and then you make the decision to turn their world upside down and homeschool them because you feel it’s in their best interest.
And it is.
But I still fear.
If I allow myself to go there and think about all of the things I feel I’m not doing right, we would never accomplish anything. I have to fight hard to push my fears aside and keep taking it one day at a time. We’ve had to make many changes throughout the last two years as we’ve learned how our son learns best. I have to focus my attention on what is going well and not allow those areas of struggle to consume me. Even though this is still all so new to us, there is one thing I can do. I can pray and ask the Lord for wisdom and guidance in all aspects of our homeschooling. Once I release my fears to the Lord, peace will come.
It is better to be led by peace than to fight unfounded fears. I have to tell myself every day that what I’m doing is in my child’s best interest and that even though I may fail at times, God will shine His light in those areas that we need the most help. With God in the center, I cannot ever really fail.
How about you? What unfounded fears are you dealing with in this season?
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