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When He Pulls You In // Glimpses Link Up

I didn’t want to go to church this morning. I know, shocking. I am still exhausted, and honestly I’ve been a little down (a lot down) over the state of our finances. I’ve been in this place before, where our lack overshadows His promise to provide all that we need. It’s a daily surrender of my cares and worries, laying them down again and again and choosing to trust instead of allowing myself to focus on my reality.

Depression is something I’ve struggled with much of my life. I am thankful I don’t have it as bad as some, but I recognize it for what it is and try my best to do what I need to do before it completely overtakes me. I wanted to stay home this morning to rest, which really meant I wanted to drown my sorrows in Netflix and chocolate. But my youngest daughter was co-leading worship this morning so, as any good mother would, I pulled myself out of bed and got myself together to support my daughter.

I sat in the lobby for an hour before service (she had worship practice early) and spoke to a few people, hugged a few others, but mostly kept to myself as I sipped my latte and played games on my phone. All this time I was fighting back tears over my lack of community in a place I hardly feel as if I belong anymore. But I go for my kids now. And, I go to worship the Lord because He is worthy of my praise and adoration in all seasons.

God is worthy of my praise and adoration in all seasons. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

Worship was amazing, as always. My dear daughter worshipped her heart out and made this mama oh so proud. After worship we heard many testimonies from summer camp (both my youngest attended) and I shed tears as one girl shared how God saved, healed, delivered and restored her all in a matter of a day or two. I was reminded in that moment of how big and powerful God was, and how He is more than capable of meeting our needs.

Following the testimonies, Pastor called all youth ages 18 and younger to the alter for prayer. My husband located our 14yo boy and headed down to where he was, and I sought out my 17yo daughter. By the time I made it down to where she was, she was surrounded by her peers who love her well. Instead of shoving my way in, I put my hand on her shoulder and agreed with those in prayer who were surrounding her. Following the prayer time, as my daughter was hugging her friends, she turned to me and we embraced. As I pulled her in, I told her how proud of her I was, how much I loved her and asked her forgiveness for any way that I may have hurt her. Tears were shed. In that moment as I pulled my daughter in, God pulled me into His presence.

Even in my depressive state this morning, God found a way to pull me in. He started in worship and continued with the testimonies and finished with the embrace of one who hardly lets me in. If I had given in to the way I was feeling this morning and stayed home, I would have missed that moment with my daughter.

No matter what you may be going through today, God wants to pull you in to His presence and remind you that He is working on your behalf.

He is a good, good Father and He is for you.

God is a good Father and He is for you. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #541-550

541. Son and daughter coming home from camp with renewed joy and focus.
542. Son and daughter being water baptized a second time while at camp.
543. Hearing testimonies from leadership as to how well my kids led others while at camp.
544. Going to church, even when it’s hard.
545. Seeing the bigness of God through the testimony of others.
546. A meaningful hug from a distant daughter.
547. Tears of joy.
548. He lifts my head when I am down.
549. He comforts me in my sorrow.
550. He turns my sorrow into joy.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

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16 Comments

  • Reply
    Lesley
    July 24, 2017 at 1:49 am

    So glad you were able to experience God’s presence like that and share that moment with your daughter. Those little reminders of his love and presence are precious! Praying for more of these moments for you this week!

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:45 pm

      Me too Lesley! Thank you!

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    Bev @ Walking Well With God
    July 24, 2017 at 3:43 am

    Barbie,
    I deal with depression and anxiety as well, and what a beautiful reminder that God did not leave you on the outside, He blessed your obedience in getting to His House and He ministered to you through your daughter whom you have brought up to love Him. Praise that He is a good, good Father,
    Blessings and ((hugs)),
    Bev

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:46 pm

      He really is so good. I will cherish this memory for a long time. Blessings!

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    Michele Morin
    July 24, 2017 at 3:47 am

    What an encouraging story. So thankful that the Lord met you there in His house and used your family to bless you and to remind you of His goodness.

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:46 pm

      Thank you Michele! Blessings!

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    jodie filogomo
    July 24, 2017 at 5:07 am

    It’s so hard to fight those emotions but I love that you wrote about it.
    Love & hugs…
    XOOX
    Jodie
    http://www.jtouchofstyle.com

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:47 pm

      I’m thankful for these moments in my life. Blessings Jodie!

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    June
    July 24, 2017 at 6:45 am

    Sweet friend, I love this testimony of how God blessed your obedience. You’re in my prayers. May God continue to hold you close this week.

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:47 pm

      Thank you June! You are such a faithful, constant encourager to my heart.

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    Susan Shipe
    July 25, 2017 at 2:53 am

    And Barbie this post reminds me of this truth: sheep feed sheep – sometimes going to church isn’t about getting “fed” but “feeding” – and this experience of yours is a perfect example. You and your husband in very quiet ways fed into your children. Isn’t that what “it’s” really all about?

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:48 pm

      That’s so true Susan. Thank you for sharing this revelation with me.

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    Lisa notes
    July 25, 2017 at 2:09 pm

    You have me in tears, Barbie. I’ve not dealt with depression like some have either, but I know enough about it to understand what you’re saying here. And to go to church feeling as you did, inspires us all. I’m glad God gave you those moments with him and with your kids.

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:49 pm

      Me too, Lisa. I am so thankful I did not give in to my emotions.

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    Marie
    July 26, 2017 at 3:23 pm

    This made my heart hurt because I understand the agony of depression and how hard it can be to attend church when you feel so disconnected. That’s my experience right now. Thank you for sharing this and know you’re in my prayers.

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      Barbie
      July 26, 2017 at 9:50 pm

      Thank you so much Marie. It’s been this way since I was laid off as the pastoral admin 3 years ago. I was so involved in ministry and after the lay off there was a lot of hurt and misunderstanding and I’ve pulled completely out. But my kids all lead worship there and are thriving. I raised them up there. It’s been so hard.

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