Random Thoughts – Take Two // Glimpses Link Up

How was your weekend friends? Mine has been pretty good. I’ve had mostly good days this last week but still struggling so much with lack of energy and enthusiasm for most things.  This morning I couldn’t even drag myself to church.  I know it would have been so good had I gone, but I just didn’t feel like going, so I opted to go grocery shopping instead. Don’t judge me.

Here I am again sharing some random thoughts about life, things I’m reflecting on or learning about.

When you aren’t missed in church.  Someone asked me in church this morning (where I drop my kids off as I was heading home) if anyone ever tells me they miss me (since I am in and out and not really attending there anymore).  My answer was no and then my heart hurt.  After over 20 years ministering there, those closest to me are all gone and no one ever sends me a note letting me know I’m missed. So therefore, I must not be missed. Perhaps this is why I’m not attending anymore.  Maybe the thought that I need more connections, small groups or bible studies is just a front to mask the pain. This made me sad this morning and perhaps why I didn’t want to step through the door of another church. The truth is I want to be missed.  I want people to notice I’m not present and be moved of the Lord to pray for me in my struggle. But it’s not happening and I need to learn to be okay with that. Church isn’t about me. It’s about Jesus.

When your current Bible study method isn’t working, change it up.  I’m still struggling to be consistent in the Word, even using the Bible App.  So I am going to change things up and begin Scripture Writing with my blog friend Elizabeth at Beauty Observed. I am hoping this will help me to tuck the Word away in my heart and bring more times of meditation. I hope to begin next week. One has to find the perfect journal with which to write down all the scripture, right? 🙂

It’s painful to admit you aren’t happy with your life.  There, I said it. I’m sure I’ve said it before, in round about ways. I’m not happy with my life, where I am in life.  Someone told me that only I could change things. While I believe this is true, I wish circumstances made things a little easier.  I am sure I could write more on this, but I will leave it here for now.

Getting out of a rut is hard work.  I have become all too comfortable with my rut. I’ve settled in and worn out my welcome mat. It’s hard work getting out of a rut. I feel stuck and part of me just wants to stay right here.  Not really, but it would be easier.  I remember how God pulled me up out of the miry clay years ago. He will do it again. I just have to reach up and let him pull me out.

God pulled me up out of the miry clay before. He will do it again. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

Thanks for being here friends. I so appreciate you.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #781-790

781.  My oldest daughter who cooked dinner twice last week.
782.  Bifocal sunglasses.
783.  New essential oils.
784.  A down blanket to keep me warm at night.
785.  Realizing I am 12lbs lighter than this time last year.
786.  Paper plates for those nights when you just cannot wash another dish.
787.  Vitamin C filled smoothies.
788.  Psalm 40:2.
789.  1 John 4:18.
780.  Deuteronomy 31:8

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
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Barbie

Seeking beauty in the ordinary and embracing life to the fullest. Thank you for stopping by and come again soon!

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17 Responses

  1. Julie says:

    Sending hugs your way. Meditate in the present moment. Let the next hour or next day greet you when it comes. You are in a season–it feels like it will last forever, but it won’t. Breathe, cut yourself some slack, and trust that you will find the energy to get out of the rut when it’s time. Rest, my friend. xo

    • Barbie says:

      Oh Julie, thank you so much. This…”Let the next hour or next day greet you when it comes.” Thank you for ministering to my heart through your words.

  2. Susan Shipe says:

    Barbie, I fight “the rut” too. Every day. God help your daughters rise up with peace and victory. In Jesus’ Name.

  3. BettieG says:

    Barbie, thank you for being so open and honest with the hard places. I am sending prayers up for you, and gentle *hugs* for you, from someone who understands those dreary days!

  4. June says:

    And here the downside of online friendships comes to light – I want to give you the sweetest, longest hug right now, my dear, sweet friend! Your words make my heart ache. But I am encouraged too because I know that you know Whom you have believed and that you are convinced that He is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted to you. And I am sure of this, that He Who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. Praying that you will know the truth of His love for you in every way. Blessings.

  5. sue says:

    We all want to be missed – I must remember that Jesus must feel the same when I’ve stepped out of His presence. Bless you, Barbie, to know how to make your way with joy and peace.

  6. We sure would miss you if you stopped showing up here! You are valuable!
    Praying with you for help getting out of your rut. May the Lord set your feet on the rock and energize you to go out and make some new friends. He wants to use you mightily. May He work whatever miracles are needed to get you where He wants you to be.
    Hey, I’ve started a new feature over at the blog called “Worship with me”. I invite you to join me there at your convenience. 🙂
    I love your scriptures and the rest of your list of things to be thankful for! Here’s another scripture that I was reading this morning: 2 Chronicles 20

  7. Maree Dee says:

    Barbie, I am so sorry you are in a rough season. I have no magical words but I do hold you up i prayer right now in this moment.

  8. Jennifer says:

    I pray your week has been encouraging – and even the words here from your on-line community have been helpful. Praying that each day includes even more glimpses of God’s beauty. Life certainly can hurt….but what a hope-filled life it is for the children of God! Thanks for sharing your heart….

  9. Barbie, thank you for your transparency! I pray that you will find the refreshing and contentment your heart longs for! It is hard to climb out of a rut, but as you said the Lord helped you out once before! I’m sure He will again! Thank you for sharing so openly and vulnerably!