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8 In Glimpses

Taking The Time To Reconnect // Glimpses Link Up

Today (Sunday) is my 29th Wedding Anniversary. I am whisking my hubby away for a couple of days of alone time, away from the kids, the house, the stress that surrounds our lives. I normally would write this post on Sunday night, but since I will be gone I am scheduling ahead (imagine that) so that I don’t break the link up flow.

Twenty Nine years ago I said “I Do” to a man who walked into my life and rescued me. Well, Jesus is the One who rescued me a few years earlier, but this man kept me from looking for love in all the wrong places and really helped me to understand true, unconditional love for the first time.

We met at church when we were both youth leaders. Our pastor’s wife introduced us. We had our first date at an amusement park, and the next day I met his parents out on the San Francisco Bay while sailing. Two and a half months later he proposed. We were married 8 months later and the rest is history. Actually, our story is still being written. Four children later, all who love and are serving the Lord with their musical ability and in worship, one son in law, two grandsons…our lives are full.

We’ve faced many hardships, especially over the last several years — job loss after job loss, the forced sale of our home to avoid foreclosure, my own job loss from a place I thought I’d serve in until God called me home, an unexplained medical issue that has caused my husband to not be able to work the last two years, and so many financial struggles.

We need this time away. We don’t connect well. We struggle to find words to say and our marriage needs work. But we are committed to one another and our love, although not always evident, is still strong. When I look at what the Lord has given to us in our children, the gifts and talents they carry, their zeal for God, and our beautiful grandchildren, how could I be anything but grateful for where we are today?

Sure, we have lots of questions, lots of “whys” which will never be answered this side of heaven. We struggle to keep our heads above water and the bills paid, but we have so much to be thankful for. God has shown His goodness to us in so many ways.

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So we are taking the next couple of days to play. We booked a room in faith, and have set some money aside, and also received some gift money. We are headed to Santa Cruz to play at the Boardwalk. We will enjoy a nice, romantic dinner and perhaps a walk on the beach. We will get up Monday morning and watch the eclipse with our special glasses, have a nice breakfast and drive up the coast. We will talk and reconnect and laugh, maybe cry, but we will be together and that’s all that matter. He is the love of my life and for Him, I am truly grateful.

Have you taken time to reconnect with someone that you love recently?

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #581-590

581. 29 years of marriage.
582. A faithful, dedicated and hard working husband.
583. Four children who love and serve the Lord.
584. Two precious grandsons whom I adore.
585. My daughter who will hold down the fort while we are away.
586. A full tank of gas.
587. Money set aside for our trip.
588. Special glasses to watch the Eclipse.
589. A reservation for a romantic dinner.
590. Memories to be made.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

21 In My 5 Minute Fridays

Speak // Five Minute Friday

Thrilled to be writing among the beautiful Five Minute Friday community. This is where we write for just five minutes, on a word prompt. We don’t worry about perfection or making it just right, but rather allow the words to flow freely without over thinking. If you’ve never written for the Five Minute Friday, come join us. You will be glad you did!


God has given me a voice. At times it’s a laid back, shy, “I don’t want anyone to hear me” voice. It fears what others may think if I were to speak my mind. It is timid and crouches in the dark corner, where no one will hear it. I have a voice, yet I’m afraid to speak up, so I cower down and assume the thoughts and ideas of another.

Yet there are times when I do speak my mind, and then I put my foot in my mouth and wish I hadn’t spoken so freely, without thinking, without putting myself in the place of the one I was speaking to. Sometimes I want to be heard so badly the timing is wrong and then I have to go and take back everything I’ve said. But you can never grab words back once they are spoken. Words are powerful, they can bring life and death.

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All of my life I spoke death to my spirit with negative thought patterns. It has taken me years to reverse those lies spoken over myself and replace them with the truth of God’s word. I still struggle with certain thoughts, but God comes to speak over me with His truth and once again I find myself surrendering to the person that God created me to be.

Sometimes I speak too much as my mind is racing with thoughts, situations and cares. It’s hard to slow down and listen. I want to be quiet, to hear the yearnings of my own heart, and to hear the Lord speak to me. It’s one of the many wonders, that God would come and speak to me.

Kari Jobe has a beautiful song, Speak to Me, which talks about the beauty of God’s voice. Listen to it if you get the chance.

God has given me a voice to speak of His wonders and glory. In return, I will slow down and listen when He speaks to me.

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22 In Glimpses

Enjoy Life More // Glimpses

My devotional reading today was about enjoying life more. When we embrace the awe and wonder of each new day, we proclaim our faith and trust in God.

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Enjoying life has been a goal of mine, right along side of looking for beauty among the mundane. I don’t want to walk through life with a sour look on my face. I want to approach each new day for the gift that it is and truly live life to the fullest.

It’s hard for me sometimes to get out of my box of “work, clean, kids, repeat”. I sometimes get stuck in a rut, in my day-to-day routine and forget to find the joy that is truly available to me in every day living. To be honest, I sometimes think other people lead so much more glamorous lives than my own. I see their lives unfold on social media and I often fall into the “comparison” trap. But I know that no one’s life is perfect. And though there may appear to be laughter, love and beauty on the surface, that doesn’t mean there isn’t pain underneath. And perhaps their lives are really as perfect as they portray. Who am I to judge?

The enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy. He would like nothing better than to rob us of the joy that is ours in Christ. For me, it starts with boredom, feeling stuck, comparison, complacency. Soon it leads to feelings of hopelessness and questioning, “Is this all there really is to life?”

Today’s devotional was a reminder from the Lord that I have a good life. It is a life worthy of enjoying. It may be routine and there may not be much happening in the day-to-day, but it’s all about how I choose to embrace every moment that is given to me. Life is beautiful. Enjoy the ride!

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And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #571-580

571. Financial blessings from friends for our anniversary get away.
572. My new Happy Planner.
573. Our new-to-us dining table is finished.
574. My Pioneer Woman pitcher to hold flowers on my table.
575. Dinner out with the hubby.
576. Lunch, coffee, shopping and laughter with friends.
577. Little reminders of His love.
578. Soft serve ice cream.
579. Free Kindle downloads.
580. Jesus loves me this I know.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

36 In Faith/ My 5 Minute Fridays

Place // Five Minute Friday

Thrilled to be writing among the beautiful Five Minute Friday community. This is where we write for just five minutes, on a word prompt. We don’t worry about perfection or making it just right, but rather allow the words to flow freely without over thinking. If you’ve never written for the Five Minute Friday, come join us. You will be glad you did!


There is a song that I sing that talks about Jesus coming to take His place in the center of my heart. It’s a cry for Him to come and inhabit all of the cracks and crevices, all of the voids and barren places. It’s a yearning for God to have first place in my heart.

Sometimes I feel as if I’m begging Him to come to a place that He should already inhabit, my whole heart. But life gets in the way sometimes and I move through my days filling up my needy heart with everything but God — friends, family, food, television, social media. There is something in me that yearns for connection, to be noticed, to be filled. But anything but the presence of the living God will leave me broken and empty.

I must ask myself this question: “Is there room enough in my heart for Jesus to come and take His place?”

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If I am honest, most days I would have to admit that there is not. I live a cluttered life and there are so many other things competing for my time and attention. I get this picture in my head of Jesus standing in the darkest corner of my heart. There is light all around Him and a gentle and peaceful look upon His face. He sees all of the other things in my heart that are taking up space, but He doesn’t ask me to remove them. The question He asks instead is, “Can I have your whole heart?” God in His kindness leaves it up to me to make space for Him. I know that if I ask Him to, He will help me declutter my heart so that He can abide.

Jesus wants my whole heart. He wants to abide there in that place fully and completely, and while I do believe He comes and He is there, I don’t want him pushed off in a dark corner while all of the other things compete for first place.

I love God and I know that He loves me, but it’s a constant battle to give Him the place He deserves in my heart. I am thankful that He is patient with me. I am thankful that when I cry out for Him to come and fill me, He does. But if I truly want to be filled to overflowing, Jesus must have first place in my heart.

Do you struggle to give God first place in your heart? Ask Him to help you declutter your heart so that He can come and abide.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

24 In Glimpses

Do You See Love Looking Back At You? // Glimpses Link Up

My heart is usually very raw after Sunday morning worship. Not that I don’t get into His Presence during the week, but there’s something about going to the corporate gathering, especially when it takes a lot of energy to get there, that draws you closer.

Before today’s service I was reflecting on the faithfulness and kindness of the Lord, how He has a purpose and meaning for my life no matter what it is I may be struggling with. Knowing that He desires to use my imperfections, brokenness and weakness for His glory is hard for me to wrap my brain around. Why would the God of the universe who is perfect and holy want to use someone like me, who is struggling through life and not really trying to make a huge impact, other than being obedient in the day to day?

My daughter led us in another song this morning, Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) by Hillsong Worship. No matter what I’m going through, God is faithful to meet me in worship and leave His imprint on my heart.

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I’ve sang about brokenness before. I’ve sang about His Amazing grace before. I’ve sang about His eyes of love before, and that is where I camp today.

I can see you now.
I can see the love in your eyes.
Laying yourself down.
Raising up the broken to life.

It’s not that I’m not seeing God at work in my life, but it’s been a long time since I felt His eyes upon me. It’s been a long time since I really looked into His eyes and saw love staring back at me. Our Pastor asked us to look into God’s eyes today, and see His love pouring forth for us. And even though I know He loves me, this love is something I’ve struggled to comprehend all of my life. I go through seasons where I can feel the intensity of His eyes of love for me; and then there are seasons of dryness and numbness where I simply look up as an act of faith and believe that those eyes are still burning for me.

I know He sees me. Even though I have days where I’m not seeking, where it takes all of my energy just to keep trudging along in life, I know that He still loves me.

I am so thankful that God understands my weaknesses and failures, and loves me even still.

What do you see when you look into God’s eyes? Do you see love looking back at you?

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Here’s a video of Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace). I hope it blesses you.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #561-570

561. Co-workers who make me laugh.
562. A job that I love to go to every day.
563. A compassionate and caring boss.
564. A clean and sparkling sink (thank you hubby!)
565. My mom is healing and getting stronger.
566. The smell of essential oils on baby’s skin.
567. Fresh cut flowers from the backyard.
568. Free Kindle books.
569. Motivation to clear the clutter.
570. Watching an old movie at an old theatre with a friend.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.