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God Help Me // Glimpses Link Up

I want to thank you all for your kind comments and prayers last week (which I know is continuing even now).  I am so very grateful for my little community here.  So many have messaged me to check in and I truly appreciate that.  I apologize the link up was not ready Monday morning, but sometimes you just gotta roll with it and I went to bed and forgot today was Monday.

I don’t have much to say right now. I’m taking one day at a time and trying to stay strong, positive and focused so that my mind is where it needs to be for the upcoming Christmas season.  In many ways I’m so numb and feel as if I’m going through the motions.  Call it adrenaline, but I would rather think it’s God covering me with a blanket of grace so that I can continue to move forward, albeit slowly.

God covers me with a blanket of grace so that I can continue to move forward. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

I wanted to share a song that has been ministering to my heart these recent weeks.  It’s called God Help Me by Plumb.  I am sharing the video below, but you can find the lyrics here.  Here is just a sampling:

There is a wrestling in my heart and my mind
A disturbance and a tension I cannot seem to drive
And if I’m honest, there’s quite a bit of fear
To sit here in this silence and really hear You
What will you ask of me?
Will I listen to your voice when you speak?

Help me to move
Help me to see
Help me to do whatever you would ask of me
Help me to go
(Or) God help me to stay
I’m feeling so alone here
And I know that You’re faithful But I can barely breathe
God help me

I don’t know the future
It’s one day at a time
But I know I’ll be okay with Your Hand holding mine
So take all my resistance
Oh God I need Your grace
One step and then the other Show me the way
Show me the way

How are you doing? I apologize I haven’t gotten around to answering your comments recently. I’ve read every one and am truly blessed.  I hope to be visiting your blogs soon. Thank you for sticking with me through this season.

Glimpses #741-750

741.  Enjoying the Christmas lights on my nightly drive.
742.  Quiet time for reading.
743.  Hallmark Christmas movies (have I said that already?)
744.  The wonder of His birth.
745.  Looser pants!
746.  Toast with cinnamon sugar.
747.  His presence that surrounds me during worship.
748.  Gift baskets from clients to enjoy at work.
749.  Enjoying Christmas music in the car.
750.  The miracle of creation.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

20 In Glimpses

Preparing My Heart To Receive Him // Glimpses Link Up

Thanksgiving has come and gone and we have now entered the Holy season of Advent.  It’s a time of much reflection, anticipation and joy as we look forward to Christmas and embrace the hope of the babe who came to save the world.

My heart isn’t quite ready for Advent.  I haven’t been doing much of anything over this last week. It’s all I can do to muster up the strength to get myself to work each day.  Once home I’m too exhausted to even get online and stay connected in community.

Part of the reason I feel so unprepared for this season is that I know that God desires to do a deep work in my heart. He’s already begun it, but you guys, it’s so painful. When we truly take a step back and look at ourselves and the mess that surrounds us, our eyes are open to the ugliness of our own humanity. I don’t like what I see. I’m a complete mess and feel as if I might crack at any moment. I’m fighting hard to stay in control, yet longing to give up control at the same time. But I can’t have it both ways. It’s not true surrender unless I lay it down and am willing to come away empty handed.

It's not true surrender unless I lay it down and am willing to come away empty handed. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

I have taken a hard look at my own heart this past week and realize how desperately I need Him. I am broken beyond repair and only He can put me back together again. But I have to be willing to do the hard work. Introspection may look as if it’s self-focused, but unless we allow ourselves to take a good, hard look at who we are, we will be unaware of the person God intended us to be. Introspection is a good thing, as long as we don’t dwell there.

Introspection is a good thing, as long as we don't dwell there. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

This past week I’ve been stuck in that place. I’ve been “me” focused and can feel the downward spiral and it’s frightening.  I’m considering contacting my doctor to discuss my emotional state, but there is a part of me that believes I should just be able to pull myself up and get out of the mess. I’ve been in that place before, where I needed help to get up over the cloud that hovers, but is that the right move? I know that something needs to change and I have to come to a place where I can begin to think rationally again about many things. I need faith to arise in my heart and His truth to consume my mind.

In the meantime, I whispers prayers for God to come closer as I prepare my heart the best I know how to receive the promise of hope, joy and a full life.

How can I pray for you my friend? I don’t have much to give right now, but I know God hears my weak prayers. I would love to lift you up.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #731-740

731.  The office decorated for Christmas.
732.  A freshly groomed dog.
733.  Playing trains with the grandson.
734.  Youngest daughter blessing my hearing during worship.
735.  Oldest son debuting another song he wrote.
736.  A smile from a stranger.
737.  Celebrating over 20 years of friendship with my besties.
738.  A new cross-body purse won in the gift exchange.
739.  Trusting my heart with others.
740.  Selling one of our cars – PROVISION!

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

22 In Glimpses

Giving Thanks IN All Things // Glimpses Link Up

I pray you all had a beautiful Thanksgiving. I miss you and hope to be back to visiting your blogs soon.

Our Thanksgiving was low key this year.  Four out of the seven adults in my home were down with the stomach flu.  Thankfully, two were already on the road to recovery by Thanksgiving, and the other two weren’t hit until later that night.  So we just laid around that evening and never did get out of the house to do out traditional Black Friday shopping the next morning which my daughters and I have done every year for many years.  We did manage to drag ourselves out of the house for our annual trek up the Santa Cruz Mountains to cut down our Christmas Tree.  Even though some were still battling fatigue and we made it a quick trip, it was worth it.

Here’s my beautiful family, including our oldest son’s girlfriend.

This weekend got me thinking about the scripture that talks about giving thanks in all things.

Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
(1 Thess. 5:18)

So often I think we misinterpret the scripture and we read it as if God is wanting us to give thanks “for” all things. But that is not the case.  Bad things happen.  We go through hard circumstances.  Grief is a very real part of our lives.  We are not called to thank God “for” those hard things but rather we are to thank God IN the hard things.

Four out of seven adults down with the stomach flu and weekend plans ruined.  I was a little upset at first.  I mean who wouldn’t be.  But once I found something to thank God for in the middle of the hard, my attitude began to change. While I didn’t give God thanks for the flu and how my loved ones were disappointed that our shopping trip was not going to happen, I thanked God that it moved very quickly, and that the other adults (myself included) and my two grandsons were spared.

Although I didn’t thank God that I wasn’t going to be able to spend time with my daughters as is tradition and create fun memories, I did thank Him that He provided a way for us to buy more important things this week, like food and gas. You see I had set aside $100 for our shopping spree and ended up purchasing much needed items for the house instead.  The shopping can wait.

This weekend was just a small glimpse of a bigger lesson God has been trying to teach me.  Life is hard sometimes. Pain is real and healing often takes time.   But when I choose to give thanks in the middle of my  mess, my attitude about my circumstances will change.

When I choose to give thanks in the middle of my mess, my attitude about my circumstances change. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

God desires that we see Him working in the midst of the hard.  My eyes are open.

How are you thanking God in the middle of your mess?

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #721-730

721.  A financial gift from a friend in a most desperate time.
722.  A new phone (I went to the dark side, as some would say)
723.  My youngest son who continues to amaze me doing 9th grade independent study.
724.  My youngest daughter who is getting very good grades her senior year.
725.  Fall scents (spiced cider, cinnamon, clove)
726.  Burnt Almond Cake
727.  Spending time with family during Thanksgiving.
728.  The smell of the turkey cooking.
729.  Apple Cider toasts.
730.  Staying in my pajamas all day on Friday.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



17 In Glimpses

Be Overcome By The Things That Matter // Glimpses Link Up

It’s 8:00pm on a Sunday evening and I’m just sitting down to write this week’s link up post. Honestly, I’ve been in the midst of a battle here on the home front and it would have been so easy to just forget about the blog and sulk in my corner of the couch. But you ladies, you are my reason for coming here each and every week. This little community that comes to encourage, link up and share I love you all so much. Many of you have prayed for me and continue to do so and I so appreciate each and every one of you.

Actually, things on the home front aren’t that bad.  I mean we have some things to work on but I believe in the midst of it all God is desiring to do a deeper work in my own heart.  I haven’t always handled things so well and in many ways my heart has grown cold.  I’ve been overcome with grief, despair, depression, fear and anxiety and I haven’t been the best wife or mom.  I’m not leading my children with grace and I’ve been angry at my husband far too long.  Grief has a way of blinding our eyes to what the real issues are.

Grief has a way of blinding our eyes to what the real issues are. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

I’m going to take some time away from social media and the blog over the next couple of months.  Don’t worry, the link up will still go on.  After all, I can’t stop counting my gratitudes, especially with everything that is going on in my life.  But I may not get around to responding to comments right away, or visiting your blogs.  But I will.  I promise.  I have a couple of review obligations but other than that my time here will be scarce.  I am also praying into my vision for the blog for the coming year and a possible simplified design.

I’m going to try to just peek in on social media every now and then and allow myself some space, away from all of the noise.  My heart is hurting and I need to reconcile some things, and I need a touch from God and our family needs emotional healing.  If there is one thing I don’t want to neglect during this busy holiday season it’s my family.

Although I can easily allow myself to be overcome by grief and despair, I am making the decision to allow myself to be overcome by God, His presence and my family who I adore beyond measure.

I pray you all have a beautiful Thanksgiving. Allow yourself to be overcome by the things that matter.

Allow yourself to be overcome by the things that matter. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

This is day 27 of my series on 31 Peeks into the Beauty of God. I am sharing mostly on Instagram, except for Mondays when I share here for the link up. I would love to have you join me at @barbieswihart.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #711-720

711.  The courage to admit I’m hurting.
712.  Admitting that I can’t heal alone.
713.  Even in the silence, I choose to believe my husband still loves me.
714.  Even though my kids don’t show it, I choose to believe they love me.
715.  Choosing to believe God loves me, even though I feel less than.
716.  The courage to allow myself to forgive.
717.  Encouraging texts and emails from friends who continue to pray.
718.  The courage to admit I’m a control freak.
719.  A spur of the moment kitchen remodel that had me angry but is going to be okay.
720.  Realizing there is so much to be thankful for.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



22 In Glimpses

Surrendering To Change // Glimpses Link Up

I use to think change didn’t bother me. But honestly after experiencing a lot of change over the last five years I would have to say I do not adapt easily to it.

There have been things in my life that I’ve lost — a home, employment, friends, ministry.  At the time that those seasons were changing I held on with every fiber of my being.  On the inside I was screaming, wanting my way, wanting things to remain the same.  I was afraid that when those things left me my life would change drastically.  And it has.  While those seasons were hard, devastating to my heart at times, I realized that God was calling me into a deeper place of trust.  Would I choose to trust Him even when I could not see the bigger picture?  It’s in those times when I must choose to believe that God is good, no matter how life changes.

It's in those times when I must choose to believe that God is good, no matter how life changes. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

I’ve learned through much hardship and tears that life is all about change.  It’s like the seasons, each one flowing gently into the other.  There wouldn’t be a spring without first a winter, nor a fall without first a summer.  Sometimes though the changing of the seasons come with harsh weather, clouds, storms and moments that threaten to challenge your faith.  It is not easy to surrender to change, but it is necessary if we are to become who and what we are destined to be.

It is not easy to surrender to change, but it is necessary if we are to become who and what we are destined to be. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

Are you going through a rough season of change?  Ask God to help you to surrender every aspect of your life to Him.  He is good and I promise you that He will bring you through.


This is day 26 of my series on 31 Peeks into the Beauty of God. I am sharing mostly on Instagram, except for Mondays when I share here for the link up. I would love to have you join me at @barbieswihart.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #701-710

701.  Sharing 2-for-1 Frapps with co-workers.
702.  Planning a weekend getaway with my bestie.
703.  Worship that goes straight to your heart and meets you right where you are.
704.  Knowing there is hope in the midst of darkness.
705.  Fresh fruit on sale.
706.  Sunflowers that remind me to smile.
707.  He has given me a sound mind.
708.  He restores my soul.
709.  He makes me lie down to rest.
710.  Recognizing my need for rest.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.