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24 In Glimpses

Taking The Time To Reconnect // Glimpses Link Up

Today (Sunday) is my 29th Wedding Anniversary. I am whisking my hubby away for a couple of days of alone time, away from the kids, the house, the stress that surrounds our lives. I normally would write this post on Sunday night, but since I will be gone I am scheduling ahead (imagine that) so that I don’t break the link up flow.

Twenty Nine years ago I said “I Do” to a man who walked into my life and rescued me. Well, Jesus is the One who rescued me a few years earlier, but this man kept me from looking for love in all the wrong places and really helped me to understand true, unconditional love for the first time.

We met at church when we were both youth leaders. Our pastor’s wife introduced us. We had our first date at an amusement park, and the next day I met his parents out on the San Francisco Bay while sailing. Two and a half months later he proposed. We were married 8 months later and the rest is history. Actually, our story is still being written. Four children later, all who love and are serving the Lord with their musical ability and in worship, one son in law, two grandsons…our lives are full.

We’ve faced many hardships, especially over the last several years — job loss after job loss, the forced sale of our home to avoid foreclosure, my own job loss from a place I thought I’d serve in until God called me home, an unexplained medical issue that has caused my husband to not be able to work the last two years, and so many financial struggles.

We need this time away. We don’t connect well. We struggle to find words to say and our marriage needs work. But we are committed to one another and our love, although not always evident, is still strong. When I look at what the Lord has given to us in our children, the gifts and talents they carry, their zeal for God, and our beautiful grandchildren, how could I be anything but grateful for where we are today?

Sure, we have lots of questions, lots of “whys” which will never be answered this side of heaven. We struggle to keep our heads above water and the bills paid, but we have so much to be thankful for. God has shown His goodness to us in so many ways.

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So we are taking the next couple of days to play. We booked a room in faith, and have set some money aside, and also received some gift money. We are headed to Santa Cruz to play at the Boardwalk. We will enjoy a nice, romantic dinner and perhaps a walk on the beach. We will get up Monday morning and watch the eclipse with our special glasses, have a nice breakfast and drive up the coast. We will talk and reconnect and laugh, maybe cry, but we will be together and that’s all that matter. He is the love of my life and for Him, I am truly grateful.

Have you taken time to reconnect with someone that you love recently?

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #581-590

581. 29 years of marriage.
582. A faithful, dedicated and hard working husband.
583. Four children who love and serve the Lord.
584. Two precious grandsons whom I adore.
585. My daughter who will hold down the fort while we are away.
586. A full tank of gas.
587. Money set aside for our trip.
588. Special glasses to watch the Eclipse.
589. A reservation for a romantic dinner.
590. Memories to be made.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

22 In Glimpses

Enjoy Life More // Glimpses

My devotional reading today was about enjoying life more. When we embrace the awe and wonder of each new day, we proclaim our faith and trust in God.

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Enjoying life has been a goal of mine, right along side of looking for beauty among the mundane. I don’t want to walk through life with a sour look on my face. I want to approach each new day for the gift that it is and truly live life to the fullest.

It’s hard for me sometimes to get out of my box of “work, clean, kids, repeat”. I sometimes get stuck in a rut, in my day-to-day routine and forget to find the joy that is truly available to me in every day living. To be honest, I sometimes think other people lead so much more glamorous lives than my own. I see their lives unfold on social media and I often fall into the “comparison” trap. But I know that no one’s life is perfect. And though there may appear to be laughter, love and beauty on the surface, that doesn’t mean there isn’t pain underneath. And perhaps their lives are really as perfect as they portray. Who am I to judge?

The enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy. He would like nothing better than to rob us of the joy that is ours in Christ. For me, it starts with boredom, feeling stuck, comparison, complacency. Soon it leads to feelings of hopelessness and questioning, “Is this all there really is to life?”

Today’s devotional was a reminder from the Lord that I have a good life. It is a life worthy of enjoying. It may be routine and there may not be much happening in the day-to-day, but it’s all about how I choose to embrace every moment that is given to me. Life is beautiful. Enjoy the ride!

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And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #571-580

571. Financial blessings from friends for our anniversary get away.
572. My new Happy Planner.
573. Our new-to-us dining table is finished.
574. My Pioneer Woman pitcher to hold flowers on my table.
575. Dinner out with the hubby.
576. Lunch, coffee, shopping and laughter with friends.
577. Little reminders of His love.
578. Soft serve ice cream.
579. Free Kindle downloads.
580. Jesus loves me this I know.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

24 In Glimpses

Do You See Love Looking Back At You? // Glimpses Link Up

My heart is usually very raw after Sunday morning worship. Not that I don’t get into His Presence during the week, but there’s something about going to the corporate gathering, especially when it takes a lot of energy to get there, that draws you closer.

Before today’s service I was reflecting on the faithfulness and kindness of the Lord, how He has a purpose and meaning for my life no matter what it is I may be struggling with. Knowing that He desires to use my imperfections, brokenness and weakness for His glory is hard for me to wrap my brain around. Why would the God of the universe who is perfect and holy want to use someone like me, who is struggling through life and not really trying to make a huge impact, other than being obedient in the day to day?

My daughter led us in another song this morning, Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) by Hillsong Worship. No matter what I’m going through, God is faithful to meet me in worship and leave His imprint on my heart.

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I’ve sang about brokenness before. I’ve sang about His Amazing grace before. I’ve sang about His eyes of love before, and that is where I camp today.

I can see you now.
I can see the love in your eyes.
Laying yourself down.
Raising up the broken to life.

It’s not that I’m not seeing God at work in my life, but it’s been a long time since I felt His eyes upon me. It’s been a long time since I really looked into His eyes and saw love staring back at me. Our Pastor asked us to look into God’s eyes today, and see His love pouring forth for us. And even though I know He loves me, this love is something I’ve struggled to comprehend all of my life. I go through seasons where I can feel the intensity of His eyes of love for me; and then there are seasons of dryness and numbness where I simply look up as an act of faith and believe that those eyes are still burning for me.

I know He sees me. Even though I have days where I’m not seeking, where it takes all of my energy just to keep trudging along in life, I know that He still loves me.

I am so thankful that God understands my weaknesses and failures, and loves me even still.

What do you see when you look into God’s eyes? Do you see love looking back at you?

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Here’s a video of Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace). I hope it blesses you.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #561-570

561. Co-workers who make me laugh.
562. A job that I love to go to every day.
563. A compassionate and caring boss.
564. A clean and sparkling sink (thank you hubby!)
565. My mom is healing and getting stronger.
566. The smell of essential oils on baby’s skin.
567. Fresh cut flowers from the backyard.
568. Free Kindle books.
569. Motivation to clear the clutter.
570. Watching an old movie at an old theatre with a friend.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



 

34 In Glimpses

Crushed In Spirit // Glimpses Link Up

Some days the weight of what I’m processing through seems so heavy. It’s not that I have any huge issue going on, but it’s a lot of little things that have happened (or didn’t happen) over the last several years that are robbing me of the peace that is rightfully mine in Christ. I’ve been pondering today what it means to feel crushed in spirit.

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
(Psalm 34:18)

Exhaustion plays a huge role in my emotional well being, and most days I function on about 4-5 hours sleep. Not near enough for a woman who carries as much as I do. I’ve been thinking I should probably try and get to bed earlier most days, but when the house is quite and the kids go to bed, I like to lose myself in Netflix marathons. In a way, I’m choosing to add to the stress on my mind, body and spirit by not taking better care of myself. But I can’t seem to give up the “me” time that I so desperately crave. I don’t have to think when I’m sitting in front of the TV. It’s easy to get lost in someone else’s problems and take a break from your own.

When your heart is broken, you do anything you can to avoid the issues. At least I do. So many years of disappointment, lost dreams, financial stress and other things have caused me to go a little numb, a lot numb. I want to be in touch with my feelings, yet I don’t. I trust God that He is the Healer and able to bring me through, but it’s the process that I fear.

God is patient. He does not demand His way. He will sit back and wait for us to come to Him. I know that if I were to give him my brokenness, completely, holding nothing back, that He would be faithful to lead me through to the other side. I think I’ve become so comfortable with not feeling anything that I’m afraid to feel.

As I process through this part of my life, I am thankful for this promise today, that God is near to the brokenhearted. He will not abandon me in my time of sorrow. No matter how long I hold on to those things I should have laid down a long time ago, God understands. I’m disappointed in myself for not having more faith, for not rising above the ashes of my life, for not standing because all I want to do is lay down.

I want to open my heart up again. I want to feel His love and mercy. I want to be in touch with my own feelings so that I could understand how I’ve allowed myself to get to this place.

My prayer is that God would be near, that I would feel the weight of His presence as He leads me through to the other side.

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*I never intended to share so personally and vulnerably about my bouts with depression and my deep disappointment about where I am in my life spiritually. But this is what’s coming out these days. I hope you don’t mind. I am so glad you are here.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #551-560

551. A last minute coffee date with a friend.
552. Our new-to-us dining room table (pictures coming soon!)
553. A husband who knows how to work with wood.
554. A God who draws near to the brokenhearted.
555. A hotel room booked for our weekend getaway coming soon.
556. A unexpected bonus at work.
557. A refrigerator full of leftovers for lunches this week.
558. Scholarships for my kids who leave for youth retreat tomorrow.
559. He upholds me with His strong right arm.
560. Psalm 43:5

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.



16 In Glimpses

When He Pulls You In // Glimpses Link Up

I didn’t want to go to church this morning. I know, shocking. I am still exhausted, and honestly I’ve been a little down (a lot down) over the state of our finances. I’ve been in this place before, where our lack overshadows His promise to provide all that we need. It’s a daily surrender of my cares and worries, laying them down again and again and choosing to trust instead of allowing myself to focus on my reality.

Depression is something I’ve struggled with much of my life. I am thankful I don’t have it as bad as some, but I recognize it for what it is and try my best to do what I need to do before it completely overtakes me. I wanted to stay home this morning to rest, which really meant I wanted to drown my sorrows in Netflix and chocolate. But my youngest daughter was co-leading worship this morning so, as any good mother would, I pulled myself out of bed and got myself together to support my daughter.

I sat in the lobby for an hour before service (she had worship practice early) and spoke to a few people, hugged a few others, but mostly kept to myself as I sipped my latte and played games on my phone. All this time I was fighting back tears over my lack of community in a place I hardly feel as if I belong anymore. But I go for my kids now. And, I go to worship the Lord because He is worthy of my praise and adoration in all seasons.

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Worship was amazing, as always. My dear daughter worshipped her heart out and made this mama oh so proud. After worship we heard many testimonies from summer camp (both my youngest attended) and I shed tears as one girl shared how God saved, healed, delivered and restored her all in a matter of a day or two. I was reminded in that moment of how big and powerful God was, and how He is more than capable of meeting our needs.

Following the testimonies, Pastor called all youth ages 18 and younger to the alter for prayer. My husband located our 14yo boy and headed down to where he was, and I sought out my 17yo daughter. By the time I made it down to where she was, she was surrounded by her peers who love her well. Instead of shoving my way in, I put my hand on her shoulder and agreed with those in prayer who were surrounding her. Following the prayer time, as my daughter was hugging her friends, she turned to me and we embraced. As I pulled her in, I told her how proud of her I was, how much I loved her and asked her forgiveness for any way that I may have hurt her. Tears were shed. In that moment as I pulled my daughter in, God pulled me into His presence.

Even in my depressive state this morning, God found a way to pull me in. He started in worship and continued with the testimonies and finished with the embrace of one who hardly lets me in. If I had given in to the way I was feeling this morning and stayed home, I would have missed that moment with my daughter.

No matter what you may be going through today, God wants to pull you in to His presence and remind you that He is working on your behalf.

He is a good, good Father and He is for you.

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And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #541-550

541. Son and daughter coming home from camp with renewed joy and focus.
542. Son and daughter being water baptized a second time while at camp.
543. Hearing testimonies from leadership as to how well my kids led others while at camp.
544. Going to church, even when it’s hard.
545. Seeing the bigness of God through the testimony of others.
546. A meaningful hug from a distant daughter.
547. Tears of joy.
548. He lifts my head when I am down.
549. He comforts me in my sorrow.
550. He turns my sorrow into joy.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply link back here.
2. Link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find each other’s posts.