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14 In My 5 Minute Fridays

Slow // Five Minute Friday

Thrilled to be writing among the beautiful Five Minute Friday community. This is where we write for just five minutes, on a word prompt. We don’t worry about perfection or making it just right, but rather allow the words to flow freely without over thinking. If you’ve never written for the Five Minute Friday, come join us. You will be glad you did!


*I originally wrote this post thinking the word was still, so some editing had to be done. Not too much as still and slow are interchangeable here. ūüôā

If I were being honest (and I always am), I would tell you that I fear slowing down.¬†Perhaps fear is a strong word. Let’s just say that I avoid stillness, purposely. I always feel the need to keep my mind engaged and my body moving.

Yes, I’m working on it. I know it’s not healthy emotionally or physically to keep myself in a constant state of motion. But it is where I’m most comfortable.

When I allow myself to slow down, my mind begins to go to places that I’d rather not go to — reliving past hurt or pain; reasoning with myself about decisions I need to make; thinking about all of the wrong in the world and wondering how little ‘ole me can make a difference. My mind begins to fill itself up with “what if’s” and “if only’s”, and I wonder once again if I’ve done enough, said enough, or am enough.

Call it ADD. Call it being undisciplined. Call it “avoiding the issues”. Whatever it is that causes my mind (and body) to want to stay busy is something I carry with me even into the holy place. I think the biggest issue for me is I’m an avoider — I don’t want to face reality sometimes. The hard truth is often too hard to bare (even though I know it’s His burden to carry). I believe that in the stillness I may here Him say something to me that I’m not prepared to hear and then that opens up a whole can of worms about my lack of obedience, etc. and so on. So even in His presence I keep myself busy reading, praying, journaling, singing. Even in the place where I crave slow there is constant motion. It’s what keeps me sane.

Even in the place where I crave slow there is constant motion. #fmfparty Click To Tweet

Someone once told me that perhaps I’ve been so disappointed by God in the past that I cannot allow myself to fully receive. Therefore, I’ve put up walls of protection to avoid being hurt again. Who puts up walls to keep God out? I suppose I do sometimes.

I know God waits for me with open arms. He’s waiting for me to let the walls down so that I can come to Him and not fear what He might say or what He might take away. He wants me to slow down and learn to trust Him in the stillness, where nothing stands between us.

I want to trust You in the stillness, where nothing stands between us. #fmfparty Click To Tweet

 

28 In Glimpses

Great Is Thy Faithfulness // Glimpses v.12

faithfulness

A couple of weeks ago I shared about a “suddenly” from God that didn’t quite work out. It’s okay though, because I know that I’m where I am supposed to be and that God will continue to provide for our family.

He always has, and He always will.

As most of you know, my husband has been unable to work since last December due to unexplained swelling in his knee. All tests have come back normal and the doctors have no idea what the cause is. This has been an extremely hard season for us, but God has proven faithful every step of the way.

Early last week, we were notified that my husband’s claim for Social Security Disability benefits¬†was approved. He is not only receiving benefits (beginning with three months’ back pay), but our two minor children are also receiving benefits. We will have enough money each month to pay our rent without worrying about where it¬†will come from.

This, my friends, is a huge burden lifted from our shoulders. We both walked out of the SS office last week in awe. God has done a suddenly in our lives and we are eternally grateful.

Joy really does come in the morning. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

Weeping may last through the night,
    but joy comes with the morning. (Psalm 30:5)

We have woken up many mornings unsure of where the provision would come, not only for our rent, but for basic needs. Even though things appeared dark at times, we held on to the hope that God would make a way where there seemed to be no way.

And He has provided a miracle. Most applicants get denied the first time. We applied three months ago, after 6 months of being off work, and our application was approved.

His mercies are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness.

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
(Lamentations 3:22-23)

We sang about His goodness again today. He IS good, not just because of what He’s done for us. It’s His nature. He is a good God and a loving Father, and He delights in giving good gifts to His children.

We are basking in His goodness today.

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #111-120

101.  The Lord is my Shepherd.
102. ¬†God’s overwhelming faithfulness.
103.  Finally settling into a homeschooling routine.
104. ¬†Gathering with extended family to celebrate my mom’s birthday.
105.  Cleansing tears.
106. ¬†I once was lost, but now I’m found.
107.  Bills paid.
108.  Gentle nudges from the Holy Spirit.
109.  Restful sleep.
110.  The ability to forgive.

Are you waiting for God’s goodness to be revealed in your life? How may I pray for you?

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. My hope is that those who were linking up on Saturday over the weekend will still have an opportunity to do so.

I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

V2 300px_GlimpsesIt is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply ink back here.
2. Remember to link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find one another’s posts.

 

18 In Glimpses

God’s Mysterious Ways // Glimpses v. 10

So this past week was a roller coaster of huge emotional magnitude for me.¬†I can’t share all the details here (but feel free to message me on FB if you want to know more).

Basically, God moved in with a “Suddenly” opportunity. He placed something promising in front of me and I pursued it. He opened the door. Then He closed it, only to open it again, only to have it closed again.

The outcome leaves me a little better off than before, but with no real change.

God has shown me His hand again through His very mysterious ways.

mysteriousways

 

My son asked me why God would dangle something in front of me, only to not have that be a part of His plan. I don’t have an answer, but I believe that sometimes God will ask us to be obedient to take steps towards something, even though the outcome is different than we had imagined.

God sometimes opens a temporary door in order to allow us to walk through another that was temporarily closed.

God sometimes opens a temporary door in order to allow us to walk through another that was… Click To Tweet

I went through so many ups and downs with this situation, but I am confident now that the right choice — the GOD choice — was made, and I am very happy.

God’s ways are a mystery. ¬†I don’t¬†always know why He asks me to do certain things, but I believe his is looking for my obedience, no matter the outcome.

God is looking for my obedience, no matter the outcome. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet

And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.

Glimpses #91-100

91. 1 Corinthians 13:7 Рlove hopes all things.
92.¬†God’s peace on an emotional journey.
93. The wisdom of God to direct my paths.
94. Closed doors.
95.¬†My 13yo son’s sense of humor.
96. Feeling loved and valued at work.
97. Fragrant roses.
98. Freezer meals prepared for the week.
99. The ability to trust and not waiver.
100.¬†The blessings of launching ¬†new friend’s blog as she’s undergoing treatment for brain cancer.

Friends, I am launching a blog for a new friend today. Kayla is undergoing radiation for brain cancer. I would love it if you’d check out her blog and leave her an encouraging comment. Oh, and we are having a week of giveaways as well.

How has God worked in a mysterious way in your life? Please leave a comment below and join us for the link up if you can.

The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. My hope is that those who were linking up on Saturday over the weekend will still have an opportunity to do so.

I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!

V2 300px_GlimpsesIt is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
1. Grab the button to place in your post, or simply ink back here.
2. Remember to link up with the post permalink, and not just your blog url.
3. Visit and encourage others who link up. We need each other!
4. Share about the link up on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter.
5. Use the hashtag #glimpsesofhisbeauty so that we can find one another’s posts.

 

42 In Faith

When The Path Of Trust Meets The Road Of Disappointment

I was certain that God would come through.¬† We prayed, cried, read the Word and chose to believe that He would make a way where there seemed to be no way.¬† Surely, God would not ask us to give up our house, the one our children were raised in, the one that displays my husband’s handiwork throughout.

We had so much hope, so much faith to believe that God would provide a way for us to keep our home.¬† But the effects of my husband’s ongoing unemployment, and the fact that we could no longer keep up with an escalating mortgage took it’s toll and we were faced with two choices — foreclosure or short sale.

I remember how after we moved I was still in a state of shock and disbelief.  Oh yes, I said that I trusted that God knew what was best.  I wanted so deeply to believe that He saw beyond our current circumstances to the day when we could stand on our feet once again, financially secure.

But deep down inside, I was crushed.  I did not understand.  I wanted to run and hide under a rock and never come out.  We had failed God, failed our children and failed each other.  No matter how hard I tried, no matter how much I wanted to cling to hope and not despair, I was angry, upset and disappointed.

God had let me down.

What does one do when the path of trust meets the road of disappointment?¬† If God is for us, and not against us, wouldn’t it be true then that His ways are higher than ours, and that we ought to know and believe that He has our best interests at heart?¬† The very God of the universe, who knows the beginning from the end, He writes my story.¬† I read His Word and say “YES” in my Spirit.¬† But what happens when my heart is crushed and I feel nothing but heartache, loss and am faced with the grave reality that what I was holding onto wasn’t mine to keep?

Out of despair and desperation, I have nothing left but to choose to trust.

I’ve been on this journey now for nearly four years.¬† We lost our home, but God has proven himself faithful time and time again.¬† My husband has remained unemployed for the majority of the last four years, but I cannot tell you the miracles of provision that have met us at the door, time and time again.¬† It is easy for me to “trust in the Lord” when things are going my way.¬† But pull the rug out from underneath me, and God has an opportunity to shine His light on the grave condition of my own heart.

I am broken.  I am weary.  I do not understand.

But He brings wholeness, refreshing and opens my eyes to see His goodness.

I feel like a failure, unworthy of His love.

But I choose to believe that His redemption is for me.

On my journey I have been faced with the realization that God doesn’t give us a choice to trust Him.¬† He simply said to “trust”.¬† It’s a command. It means that no matter what, I will choose to put my unwavering faith and hope in a God who will never disappointment me, even when my heart tells me otherwise. It means that I will choose to believe that God is good, no matter what circumstances I may face. It means that I will cling to the promise that I have a hope and a future, one of prosperity and not of harm, despite what my bank account tells me.

God says to trust Him.¬† My response must be one of obedience, lest I fall into despair.¬† I remember an old song I use to sing when I first came to know the Lord.¬† “Trust and obey, for there’s no other way.¬† To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.”

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Not a shadow can rise, not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
Not a doubt or a fear, not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share,
But our toil He doth richly repay;
Not a grief or a loss, not a frown or a cross,
But is blessed if we trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

But we never can prove the delights of His love
Until all on the altar we lay;
For the favor He shows, for the joy He bestows,
Are for them who will trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet.
Or we’ll walk by His side in the way.
What He says we will do, where He sends we will go;
Never fear, only trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.
(Trust and Obey)

Has your path of trust met the road of disappointment?  Are you choosing to trust that the Lord will make a way?  Will you share your experience in the comments below?  I would love to pray for you.

*Linking up with Bonnie for Faith Barista Jam.

9 In Weekend Whispers

The Weekend Brew: Trusting In His Name

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Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O LORD, do not abandon those who search for you.
(Psalm 9:10)

Jesus…

Just to say His Name brings me so much comfort. ¬†Everything I need, He is. ¬†This week, I’ve been reminded of His Name. ¬†He is my…

Prince of Peace
Provider
Refuge
Immanuel
Bread of Life
Living Water
Redeemer 

Even in the hard places, He continually shows me His faithfulness.  He will not abandon me because I trust in His Name.  He is faithful to me, because I search for Him and wait for Him to reveal Himself to me.

Are you searching for Him today my friends?  He will not abandon you!  He is faithful.

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