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He Knew You

Barbie Swihart
Before the world began.  I was assisting in the Children’s Equipping Center last night and we were talking with the children about a God who knew them before they were born.  We shared how God thought about each one of them before He even laid the foundations of the earth.  We had the children meditate on a song that expressed God’s heart for them. I loved hearing the children share what they wrote in their journals.  They have such a rich understanding of God’s love.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.  (Psalm 119:13-18) 

I was not privy to this information, about a God who loved me deeply, while I was young. I came to know the Lord at the ripe age of 20.  Understanding, and even fully experiencing the freedom of this kind of love is something I’ve struggled with all of my life.  I wish I could say that I have fully come to know and understand this love.

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:16-19) 

But I can’t. Oh, I believe that God loves me.  I believe it because I know His Word to be true.  I believe it with my mind.  Head knowledge.  But I long to feel the depth of that love, like waves crashing in the ocean, overwhelming my heart.  A portion of the above scripture was used for the tagline in my header “rooted and grounded in the marvelous love of God”.  I chose that not because I have arrived at a place of understanding, but I chose it as a constant reminder to continue to pursue the knowledge of God and the love that He gives.

I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.  (Jeremiah 31:3) 

The children at CEC get it.  They understand and are able to comprehend.  I can imagine how they feel when they hear about a God who loved them before He even made the world.  And I find myself longing for those feelings, those butterflies, the warmth of knowing. Why is it so hard for this love to go beyond “head” knowledge and sink deep into my heart?  Is it wrong for me to want to “feel” this love?  I am not lacking in experience.  I’ve felt His touch on my life.  It goes deeper than that.  And then I ask the question, “God, what is it that makes it so hard for me to fully comprehend your love”.  And I wait. And my heart is raw and tender before Him today as I ask Him to come bring revelation to my heart.

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He Knew You — 7 Comments

  1. Being called, being loved, and being known by a God of Love is the most wonderful gift in my life. You shared this post so lovingly and honestly. Once again, I have been blessed in my visit, as I am sure the children you spoke to were blessed too.

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  2. thank you for sharing your heart! I am always so amazed when I read your blog at how much I am there with you on these posts!

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  4. Have you done Experiencing God by Henry Blackaby? It is the best study for going from head knowledge into heart knowledge of God & being set free to truly experience how He is working all around you & the work He is inviting you to join Him in. Changed my life & walk with Him forever!!!
    Wylie

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  5. You and I are similar in that regard. I have the head knowledge, but I know that there is a deeper level of heart knowledge to be achieved/acquired.

    What a blessing for those children to have that heart-knowledge. I pray my daughter does too.

    Love & hugs to you!
    Beth

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  6. Don't you just love what fasting does to you? How you yearn for God to fill you up? This is beautful Barbie. I am covering you in prayer, hoping that God will overwhelm you with His never ending, mind blowing love. I will pray that you will walk fully equipped in His power.

    God Bless,
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  7. Absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Being known and loved…it's the best!!!!

    I'm baack! Ready to catch up with the blogging world :)))

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