Today, Bonnie the Faith Barista asks this question, “What season of faith are you walking through?” Fall (letting go), Winter (loss/waiting), Spring (new starts), or Summer (embrace & celebrate).
As the Lord continues to draw me closer to Him and as I let down my walls and allow Him to come in and invade the deepest places of my heart, I am faced with the reality that I am broken. I see this brokenness as imperfection, short comings, not measuring up, not good enough. Oh the lies! If my brain had an “off” switch, I would have hit it a long time ago. I am on a journey of discovering who I am in Christ, despite my brokenness. What does He say about me? How does He see me? God wants to take my brokenness and use it for His glory. It’s easier to hang onto it though. It can be painful to let go. Some days I feel as if my heart will shatter into a million pieces. And when it does, will anyone notice? Who will pick up the pieces? Who will mend my broken heart?
As I sit and try to understand the thoughts and emotions that are stirring inside of me concerning my desire to let go, I hear the gentle voice of the Holy Spirit speaking to my heart. This is what He says to me:
I love you with an everlasting love.
I am proud of who you are and what you’ve become.
But there is still more for you.
Yet, in order to experience my fullness, you must let go.
I see your heart. I know your heart longs to please and to surrender.
But there are areas where you have not allowed me to come in.
Wounds so deep that no words can express.
But I know. I understand.
Your heart says YES, sometimes timid and shy.
I know You long to be Mine fully,
But you must surrender these places to me.
I will not hurt you. I am a patient and loving Father.
I promise you that when you let go of your pain,
You will find JOY. You will find REST. You will find PEACE.
You walk in joy now, but it is temporary.
You have moments of rest, but I want to take you deeper.
You’ve known my peace, yet your heart is in turmoil.
Will you allow me to heal your broken heart?
Will you allow me to breathe new life into you?
Will you allow me to show you the way to wholeness?
There is pain in letting go. I understand how you feel.
I will not leave you in your brokenness. I will be there to pick up the pieces.
I promise I will not overlook your pain. I am the God who heals.
You say, “If only others could see and understand.”
I see. I understand. Trust me.
Letting go is not quitting.
Letting go is allowing your heart to heal. To become whole again.
Trust me my child. Let go and live!
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
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