Abiding {Day 6} – When It’s Not Perfect — 42 Comments

  1. Thank you for being real, honest, and vulnerable.  I am so right there with you.  You created a moment of stillness for me this morning, and I am grateful.  Thanks for opening yourself up to let the Spirit shine so brightly through you!

  2. Barbie, you are such a beautiful person. I know that your striving will eventually bring you to the place you want to be with the Lord. He sees and hears your heart… He knows.

    I am there. I reached that point several years ago. For as long as I’ve been saved, I’ve had a close fellowship with Jesus. But just after Jerry (my second husband) and I married, I was digging into the Bible and praying as never before, talking endlessly with God, and suddenly, I “got it.” I finally “understood”… and since then, I have such a deep personal relationship with the Lord that words cannot even begin to describe. It’s like I reached a whole other plateau of abiding with the Lord that no one has ever told me about, that maybe some do not know about themselves! I have cousins in ministry who have been struggling to reach that point, but I don’t know how to explain it to them. All I’ve been able to tell them is, “when you get there, you’ll know… and then, everything will fall into place.”

    Keep striving, Barbie. Praying with you, friend!

    • Thank you so much Jamie. This writing exercise has been more than a commitment to write for 31 days. God is rearranging my heart. It’s been good, yet overwhelming at times. Thanks for your prayers!

  3. Barbie, your transparency here is powerful.  You encourage us to be honest with each other:  you invite us into this safe place with you.  Thank you.  My focus on “forgetting myself” in my 31 days series is completely because this is an area where I need to stay, with Him.  I don’t have this down.  I am so grateful for how He loves us as we reach for Him as He reaches for us.  He loves us no matter what, but how beautiful to partner with Him as we trust Him with our weaknesses! And together, we get to see Him — and rest in His strength, rather than our own.  Thank you so much, friend.

  4. We really are all broken. I love this post and I love your writing and I love YOU! I so get what you’re saying about quiet times. I have both extremes and everything in between, too. And too often it’s rushed and hurried and something I do out of a sense of duty more than anything else. But I miss Him when that happens. Isn’t it funny how He works in us when we simply choose and topic and start writing?

  5. Barbie, I’ve been reading your Abiding posts, and this one was written not just for you but for me too!  I check off the boxes, I strive for perfection, I try to “do” it all.  And none of it is necessary in His eyes.  I often find myself scrambling to get my prayers in the rest of the hectic day.  Sigh . . . thank you, Lord, for Barbie and her gift of writing, and thank you for teaching us both through her writing.

  6. I sit here in awe of what God is doing.  I wrote today about my similar struggle, and Jen @ Finding Heaven shared the same.  God is certainly speaking to our hearts, and while it maybe a struggle, I’m sure it is going to be worth it.  Many blessings, Barbie!

  7. Thank you SO much for being honest – because I struggle too.  I want to find time and make time to just sit and be still in Him, but my mind races with all the things I do and the moment I finally sit down, there is a little one demanding my attention or I’m reminded of something else I should be doing.  But I love that verse – that His mercies are new every morning…and, even more, they are new every MOMENT.  He is constantly making me new, so, thought I may mess up in one moment of the day, He wipes the slate clean and gives me a fresh start every time I come to Him, seek forgiveness, and allow Him to change me.   Also, in writing my own 31 Days of Devotions, I was really scared to write, because I’ve been so sporadic in my own devotions time and have struggled to really abide in Him.  But, I knew He wanted me to write it and, in writing and focus on Him day by day, I am learning to abide in Him again.  Isn’t it wonderful how that works?

  8. I am staying right with you– thanks for your vulnerability. I’ve seen my own brokenness so clearly in that all my striving, even when I think it is for Him, still all about ME. With you, I want to release that and just  receive He who is “full of mercy and full of grace.”

    Thank you for writing. 

  9. Thank you Megan.  That book is really speaking to my heart.  God wants us walking in wholeness, and this book is helping to set me free.  Glad to have you along on the journey.

  10. Barbie, I just read a great CS Lewis quote on another blog that said (paraphrase) “We do not write because we understand, we write so that we will understand.”  As writers, part of the process to gaining understanding is writing!  We don’t have to have it all figured out take people on a journey!  Being real, means we can walk together!  That is what I love about sweet Emily’s book!  You genuinely feel like you are on the journey with her! 

    Love your transparency!  Keep writing! 

  11. Amazing and honest post, Barbie!  I find myself revisiting subjects that I have taught, and written about, because I need the refresher…it all keeps us dependent on Him, the best place to be!  Have a beautiful day 🙂

  12. I thank you for your honesty Barbie.  I’m glad to know that I am not alone!  I have my daily quiet times.  When I wasn’t working full time, I had the time to dwell in His presence and …I loved it.  Nowadays, I spend time with Him but not nearly enough.  I find my mind racing as I’m praying and then I ask Him to quiet my mind.  Time is so limited and I feel rushed.  I don’t like that.  But how thankful I am that He never leaves me and He knows my heart’s desire is to …abide.

    Love you,

  13. You are so, so sweet to include a link to my series, Barbie. And please know, the place I am writing from? It is absolutely one hundred percent from a place of need. I am writing this series not because I have it together or get it, but because I myself NEED it desperately. 

    Hugs to you! 

  14. I’m so glad that I’m not the only one with this inner struggle. Well, not glad, but your honesty revealed to me… I’m not alone. I love your writing and look forward to reading your thoughts ( God’s thoughts) every day.

    In His Grace~Tammy

  15. Thank you so much for sharing your heart.  You are not alone in facing the struggle of becoming still and falling into performance mode.  I am ordering Grace for the Good Girl this week and reading your posts too.  Joining you on this journey. Be blessed!

  16. I can so relate to the “checking of the boxes,” and trying to do things perfectly….that wears a girl out, doesn’t it? Thank you for your honesty, your beautiful heart shines through every word.  God will grant the desires of your heart!  You are dearly loved!

  17. Barbie ~ You are perfect in His eyes! He loves you and is growing you to be like Him. May you continue to be still, as I am on the same journey. ~ Wendy

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