I made a choice a while back to lay low, to lay down and to be still. I felt as if I had lost my voice. I strived to find the words to write, to share my heart, yet with every stroke of the keyboard I heard Him say, “Be still. Come away.” And still I dug deep, through tears and pain to find a glimpse of His heart so that I could encourage your heart.
But what I realized is that God was calling me away into a season where the only heart that needed to be encouraged was my own. And so I had to make a choice to be still, to put the writing aside and to allow Him to come and fill me up. One does not realize how empty they are until they begin getting filled.
This choice has been painful and lonely at times. Yet I think about Mary and how she chose to sit at Jesus’ feet, to listen to His words and to remain in His presence. And Jesus said that Mary had chosen the better part and that it would not be taken from her.
And so, like Mary, with my Martha tendencies to run here and there and please everyone, I am making a choice to sit at His feet, although this laying down has been anything but easy. I am leaning in, pressing in and sometimes friends, He doesn’t speak, or not that I can hear. But He’s calling me to trust, to abide, to stay. I have to believe that although I cannot feel Him working on the outside, He is working on the inside and my heart is in the process of being filled, healed, renewed.
I’m choosing Him today, my friends.
Linking up with Lisa Jo Baker and a beautiful group of writers, where we write for just five minutes on a word prompt and toss aside fear and perfection. Todays’ prompt is choose. Join us?