The Weekend Brew: Living In The Tension — 59 Comments

  1. Walking in the Spirit means living in the tension, like a tight rope wire. Trusting in Him means we don’t have the worldly security and self-reliance that keeps us in a safe prison. His way is the only way to live.

  2. Barbie…You are right where He has called you. To sit. To be still. To slow down and bask in His Presence and wisdom. I think I will join you and listen. Thank you for the reminder and for the link up friend. Have a blessed Lord’s Day.

  3. Oh Barbie, I wish I could hug you. For the past year I have been going through something similar and it is now when I am finally starting to see the light and “finding that frequency” with God again. Hang in there. He hears you and will fill your heart. I’ll be praying for you also my dear.

  4. Hey Barbie! The doing and being are perpetual states for me. I swing back and forth between them…doing until Done I crawl back to just “be”. Maybe that’s the journey, where the longing comes from. If we continue the pursuit, breakthrough will come. Stay the course my friend,

  5. This is beautiful: “For only in the longing and the wanting can a hungry heart ever truly be satisfied.” I would love to sit and search with you, my friend. I pray that whether in a dry spell or not, we all continue to long for Him.

    • Oh yes, friend. I hope for that day, to sit with you and hug your neck. Praying you have a blessed and beautiful week!

  6. I feel that tension too – the pull and tug of knowing that there is a next step but my time is not now – the anticipation that more is to come but being still with God is where He wants me. This is my time to learn and know all there is -know myself and know God. Such truth in your words, such wonder in knowing we are not alone. Blessings to you!

  7. Remember, friend, if things weren’t difficult, we’d never feel the need to seek Him. If everything came and went easily, we’d soon forget our desire for Him to comfort and love us. Be strong. May you feel all your readers’ arms enveloping you as we wait with you!

  8. Oh how that lovely photo fills me with dreaming! May His peace reign over you as you rest in His Shalom, Barbie. I heard a minister saying the other day how the Jews pray Shalom Shalom, twice, because it is peace within and peace without. I love that. 🙂

  9. Dear Barbie, beloved of God, I went through a long period like this, in the midst of a crisis, when I couldn’t feel Him, couldn’t hear Him. It was awful. Much worse than the crisis I was going through at the time. I think that is what hell must be like. Knowing Him and yet being apart, separated from Him in every way. I shudder to think of it.

    How did I get through it, much the same way you are – faith. Trust. I know He is real, I know He is always with me. And His word, how I clung to His Truth! The enemy tried to get me to doubt, to fear, but God was faithful to increase my faith – He will do the same for you.

    I pray for those who enter this particular valley and succumb to the enemy. I pray that they see your words, here, and receive hope.

    Praying for you as you journey closer to Him.

    • Thank you June. That is my hope, that those who read would be drawn closer to Him, no matter what seasons they are living in.

  10. I think you’re on to something. To have the realization of how you long to hear from Him, to cry out to Him for that and to continue doing that in the midst of seeming silence is beautiful. To continue to have faith in what you don’t see…this is what a beautiful life in Christ is. It seems to me that the Lord has been working greatly in your life in regards to how to be a better steward of the time and gifts that He has given you. That is priceless! Blessings…

    • Thank you Amy. I considered stepping away from blogging all together during this season, but I do believe He is using my words, what He is showing me, to encourage others. Thanks for stopping by.

  11. Barbie, Such a wise friend. My friend and I had a long and similar text discussion last night. We are going through the same. We know that God has better plans for us than we have, but it can feel so silent at times. And in this silence it is tempting to take control or hear things that may not be there. Instead, we will wait on The Lord. His timing is perfect. Blessings to you.

    • Kim, I am saying a prayer for you and your friend. Father, gather up Kim and this one in your arms and tuck them away into the secret places of Your heart. May you lavish your love on them and may they sense Your nearness in a deep and powerful way. Hang in there!

  12. I’m glad to see you got the blog up and running again Barbie. Whew! Scary stuff.

    This time of tension, I think, is more about trusting him than anything else. Trusting him to use the silence, trusting him to use us when the world suggests another route, trusting him to still be working in us when we are ‘hearing’ anything, trusting him to meet all our needs, trusting him to love us completely. And that’s just the beginning of the tension…yes?

    All that and I don’t have answers…just a grateful heart to know we have a trustworthy and faithful God, awesome in power and might.

    May your weekend be filled with extraordinary God moments.

  13. Oh I love this Barbie; “For only in the longing and the wanting can a hungry heart ever truly be satisfied.”

    I know it’s never easy to be in these periods when we don’t feel connected. I often feel His silence is an invitation to press on and seek Him more persistently. For we know that He is in control, and hears our cries for help, and He waits for the perfect time to speak! We cannot see all that God is doing, or see all that He will do, but we can be assured that He will answer us when the time is right. And even though it’s not easy to wait when God is silent, experience tells us time and time again that the wait is worth it! Love you and praying for this time in your life Barbie! ♥

    Blessings and hugs friend,

    • Thank you so much Denise. I keep going back to His promises, how He strengthens those who wait. I know my heart is being strengthened, even though I feel weak at times.

  14. Barbie – I want to encourage you that even in the silence, God is at work. He is always at work. May we not equate still or quiet, with inactivity or lack of of working in your life. He is there. He is quietly at work. And when He reveals it all, you will understand it all. Your only response at that point will probably be to worship Him. Praying for you!

    • Thank you for that reminder Joanne. I do believe that He is even closer to me during this time of stillness. Praying you have a beautiful weekend.

  15. Barbie,
    I keep seeing God in this stage with you. I know He is doing much beyond what we can see. Tonight, as I read this post, I thought, “This is such good stuff and it so needs to be said out loud.” We need to hear one another share from the silent places and the places of doubt — to make the secret less hidden, to call out the common in what you are going through. And I thought, “This is the dark night of the soul. Some are never brave enough nor strong enough to walk into it, but those who do walk out so much more refined and closer to the Lord.” And then I remembered that faith is deepest when we hold on without seeing. Anyone can have faith when God’s presence is evident. It takes true faith to cling through a dark season — one which feels void of His presence. Thank you, thank you, for your transparency. Love you.

    • Oh Patty, you truly are one of my greatest encouragers, and you help me to see this season of my life in a new light. Thank you for that. Love you much!

  16. “Yes, even those things which you bring with you into My presence.”
    It’s funny how we do that. Like we need to add to the experience. Like He’s not enough just because He is. Barbie, the fact that you know you need Him is His tug, His working.

    Some people go their whole lives feeling the quietness and thinking God isn’t there. But you know He is. That, my friend, is one the greatest revelations you can ever experience. Sit in that assurance. His words will follow 🙂

    Sending my love and praying for a fresh word upon your life!

  17. I went through a silent season in 2012. I would encourage you to write down any stray thoughts or things that you don’t think are significant. I kept scribbling what I thought was nonsense into the pages of a journal, but when I pick it up now and look back, I see a clear pattern — I see Him in those pages. At the time, I couldn’t but now that I am on the other side, I see the threads He tied together.

    • It’s been hard to write in my devotional time. I am really not hearing anything. I will try to pay better attention to my thoughts. Looking forward to coming through on the other side 🙂

      • new to your site from “The Sunday Community.” Just wanted to jump in here. even when i dont’ have anything to say, if i can just start writing – anything, even llike “I don’t know why I am writiing. I feel nothing, have nothing ect….you get the [point, it is sometimes interesting to see where it goes.

        I have just been through a difficult time and felt like God was so far away. I sensed that I was to just keep doing the next thing. I am in counseling and i just kept “doing my work” each week with whatever was surfacing…and like you (it seems like it from reading) being honest with God about my doubts. In January, totally unexpected God met me very clearly in two Sunday worship times and graced me with the presenc of some dear friends I had not seen for a long time and it was like I saw God again. I cannot explain it except to say it was all grace and it was time. I pray this for you. It seems like you are in a good place, but such a hard, hard, hard place. I think you know God is ok with you – no shame here. Blessings –

        • Carol, thank you so much for taking the time to write such an encouraging comment. I am thankful for how God has met you during your own season of struggle. And you are so right, I must keep writing, no matter what. I know that the more I step out in obedience the more He will meet me. I look forward to stopping by your blog. Blessings!

  18. I love this Barbie- over the summer I went through a phase like this and even though it felt as if God was silent, He was working in more than I knew. Praying for you and love you!!! Thank you for helping me with my comments too!!!

  19. I appreciate your beautiful heart and your honest words!! “Cease striving” is becoming one of my themes in life and I love how beautifully you share it here.
    I don’t say it often enough, but I am always blessed by your words, Barbie!

  20. You are right where you need to be, right now. The Lord places us in different seasons of faith, longing and growing. I think what you are going through is natural and, in its own way, a blessing. Keep your heart open to Him and you will prosper in love, joy and faith. Blessings! Cynthia

  21. Hey my friend! 🙂 It just hit me. A while back I started reading Jeff Goins book The In-Between and was really enjoying it. It’s about finding beauty in the quietness between finishing one big project and waiting for the next big thing to come along. You might like it. I need to pick it up and start reading it again. Because it’s not on my Kindle I have a tendency to forget that I haven’t finished it yet. 🙂

  22. Oh I so desperately want to just sit with you. That’s all. We are in a similar place and I’m so comforted by your words. I love you, Barbie.

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