The Weight Of His Grace // Glimpses Link Up — 28 Comments

  1. Barbie, I understand… Every. Word. You. Wrote.

    Although our hurts may be different, I can apply what you’ve said to my own situations. And I know we are not the only ones who have cried out in pain, despair, and anguish to God. He has scores of children who have hurts.

    But he is always – ALWAYS – with us.

    “…for when you saw only one pair of footprints, I carried you.”

    Keeping you always in prayer, friend.

    (Sorry I haven’t been able to visit lately, but know that you are always on my heart.)

    Hugs and blessings.

  2. Your words remind me of a similar experience I had in the church and I can understand your need to withdraw. You will come to a place of healing, my friend. I pray that God will comfort you and that you will be open to His leading and His timing as He brings you back toward fellowship with others again. It is so hard and my prayers are with you.

  3. Dear Barbie,

    Oh, dear one. Yes, His grace comes when we release and give in to the tears. God sees you. We see you. You are loved. Give yourself permission to grieve…it is hard and holy work. Praying for you…((hugs))

  4. There is a beauty to the honest pain you have shared. So real and so raw, it touches places in me that have felt the same things, but I couldn’t express them. The process of healing sometimes comes slowly. I am praying God will enable you to come to a place of breaking through and breaking free from the pain that holds your heart captive.

  5. Yes he does my friend! I understand how it feels easier to hide behind what we are really feeling or to avoid a place or situation all together thinking that will help. Your church family loves you and would like nothing more than to surround you in love. Thank you for your beautiful transparency. Love and hugs!

  6. I think when we hold on to our pain and suffer from wounds that have lasted for so long, the thought of letting them go is almost as scary as the thought of moving on. So many times in my own life, those hurts have tried desperately to attach themselves to my identity and tell me who I am. The letting go seems so anti-climatic and yet… when I finally loosen my grip and let it go, and agree to move forward, freedom comes and healing is manifested!

    Praying for you, friend! He IS at work! If it hasn’t turned around for your good yet, then He is not doing working all things together yet!

  7. I think that sometimes we are serving God just by being brave and going forth in obedience in spite of the pain. You can be sure that someone is observing your obedience, and you are mentoring them in their Christian life without even realizing it. In addition to that, you are following God in obedience here on this blog and affecting the lives of other Christian women on a broader scope for the glory of God. You are still in the game even though the enemy doesn’t want you to be.
    I understand not wanting to hurt; been there done that for LONG periods of time. But don’t be afraid to cry out to God. He holds your tears in His bottle and sees every one. The Bible is full of examples of God’s servants crying out to Him: Job, Jeremiah, David, Jesus, Hannah and others. Michael Card’s book, A Sacred Sorrow, talks about how lamenting is a lost art, a missing part of worship. I highly recommend the book.
    I pray that you will find the healing that you so need.
    Here is a poem that I wrote in the midst of great trials; I pray it will be a blessing to you.

  8. I can identify with this, Barbie. Yes, only God knows the war inside of us. And He’ll keep giving us sufficient grace, even when we can’t “feel” Him. Thank you for being honest here. It’s so hard to be caught between the hurt and the healing. It’s hard to understand, but every time we sink back into the hurt, by grace God lifts us up again and gives us ever deeper healing. Does that make sense? I pray God will give you ever deeper healing! Love and hugs!

  9. Oh, your pain is so real, Barbie. It takes a long time for some wounds to heal, but I know that God has you on a freedom journey and one day you will reach peace with it. May he continue to bless you with much grace in the meantime. I’m so glad he knows what even others don’t know. “Only God really knows the war that rages on the inside.”

  10. Barbie,

    Your words are so poignant and heart-felt. I am praying for you to find hope in the weight of His grace over you, for you to be able to see the light that shines like Isaiah wrote about in chapter 60. Someone very precious to my heart is really wading through the murky waters of depression, and though I have personally been acquainted with these feelings it is different when praying for others and necessary to listen close to each other’s words. Thank you for sharing your heart.
    Bless you,

  11. Thanks for sharing so honestly, Barbie. I’m sorry for the pain you continue to experience. I’m glad you’ve know God’s grace breaking through in the brokenness. Praying that you continue to know his love holding you.

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