I hit a wall today. I’ve been going full steam ahead for a week or so and today I just finally stopped. Not physically, although my body is tired and I can’t seem to do anything. It was more emotional, finding myself argumentative with family, near tears and just sad about a lot of things.
I know a lot of this is manifesting because I haven’t been getting proper sleep, nor have I taken much needed time to recharge, refocus and refuel. I have no one to blame for the staying up late part but myself. My kids go to bed around 11PM and then I choose to sit up (sometimes with my husband, sometimes without him) and watch Netflix. What is it about losing yourself in a movie or television show that is so soothing to the mind? I know I need to get to bed earlier, like the same time my kids do but I don’t. Lack of sleep has proven to play a huge role in my mindset and allowing depression to take over. I know that if I truly want to feel better, I need to get proper sleep.
Self care is hard for me. There is always something or someone pulling on me for time and attention. I love my family but it’s constant. I love my job and I work hard and am thankful I get to leave work at the office. I love the ministry I have to encourage other bloggers and even help them with design and editing, but it takes time.
I’m noticing this week that my body needs rest and my mind needs to refocus on what is important. I’m still only blogging about once a week, which is why I’ve decided not to write for the #write31days challenge in October. I may sneak in a post or two using the word prompts for the free writes, but I don’t have it in me to sit and schedule posts or craft words when my mind is so full but empty at the same time.
It’s so important to take time out to care for myself, whether that’s watching a movie (at an appropriate hour), treating myself to a cup of coffee, putting on my headphones and escaping in my favorite worship CD, going for a walk, chatting with my best friend on the phone, being creative — whatever it is, I have to make time for me.
My life ebbs and flows with both good and bad. Some days I’m up, others I’m down. But no matter what, I choose to give Him praise. I know He’s busy behind the scenes bringing about those things that I cannot see.My life ebbs and flows with both good and bad. Some days I'm up, others I'm down. But no matter what, I choose to give Him praise. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet
Will you be praying for me on Tuesday? I have a surgery consultation regarding my gallbladder. At this point, I am pretty sure I’ve decided to have the surgery, just need to get all of the details, etc.
Thank you for being here.
And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.
631. Pretty rocks hidden in dirt.
632. Mint foot rub.
633. His kindness leads me to repentance.
634. A job prospect for my husband.
635. Mocha ice cream.
636. He bears our burdens.
637. The opportunity to help other bloggers.
638. A Costco shopping date with the hubby.
639. Fresh strawberries over ice cream
640. A new-to-use stove to replace the broken one, thanks to our landlord.
The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!
It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
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