How was your weekend friends? Mine has been pretty good. I’ve had mostly good days this last week but still struggling so much with lack of energy and enthusiasm for most things. This morning I couldn’t even drag myself to church. I know it would have been so good had I gone, but I just didn’t feel like going, so I opted to go grocery shopping instead. Don’t judge me.
Here I am again sharing some random thoughts about life, things I’m reflecting on or learning about.
When you aren’t missed in church. Someone asked me in church this morning (where I drop my kids off as I was heading home) if anyone ever tells me they miss me (since I am in and out and not really attending there anymore). My answer was no and then my heart hurt. After over 20 years ministering there, those closest to me are all gone and no one ever sends me a note letting me know I’m missed. So therefore, I must not be missed. Perhaps this is why I’m not attending anymore. Maybe the thought that I need more connections, small groups or bible studies is just a front to mask the pain. This made me sad this morning and perhaps why I didn’t want to step through the door of another church. The truth is I want to be missed. I want people to notice I’m not present and be moved of the Lord to pray for me in my struggle. But it’s not happening and I need to learn to be okay with that. Church isn’t about me. It’s about Jesus.
When your current Bible study method isn’t working, change it up. I’m still struggling to be consistent in the Word, even using the Bible App. So I am going to change things up and begin Scripture Writing with my blog friend Elizabeth at Beauty Observed. I am hoping this will help me to tuck the Word away in my heart and bring more times of meditation. I hope to begin next week. One has to find the perfect journal with which to write down all the scripture, right? 🙂
It’s painful to admit you aren’t happy with your life. There, I said it. I’m sure I’ve said it before, in round about ways. I’m not happy with my life, where I am in life. Someone told me that only I could change things. While I believe this is true, I wish circumstances made things a little easier. I am sure I could write more on this, but I will leave it here for now.
Getting out of a rut is hard work. I have become all too comfortable with my rut. I’ve settled in and worn out my welcome mat. It’s hard work getting out of a rut. I feel stuck and part of me just wants to stay right here. Not really, but it would be easier. I remember how God pulled me up out of the miry clay years ago. He will do it again. I just have to reach up and let him pull me out.God pulled me up out of the miry clay before. He will do it again. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet
Thanks for being here friends. I so appreciate you.
And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.
781. My oldest daughter who cooked dinner twice last week.
782. Bifocal sunglasses.
783. New essential oils.
784. A down blanket to keep me warm at night.
785. Realizing I am 12lbs lighter than this time last year.
786. Paper plates for those nights when you just cannot wash another dish.
787. Vitamin C filled smoothies.
788. Psalm 40:2.
789. 1 John 4:18.
780. Deuteronomy 31:8
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