Thank you for your patience while I find balance in my life. I’m not really that busy, except it’s tax season and when you are the Office Manager for a CPA it’s very busy. So long days, overtime and a brain full of numbers leaves me with not much left to bring to this space. Because I don’t ever write ahead, it’s especially hard to keep these Monday link up (now Tuesday) posts going. But I love this community that gathers here and I have no intention of letting it go, unless the Lord says to. I don’t ever want to be a downer and I know I’ve been sharing a lot lately about my hard season of struggle. I appreciate you allowing me to share openly and honestly here. You’ve given me so much love and grace and for that I am truly grateful.
Never wanting to dream something up just for the sake of getting a post up, I will continue to be my honest self. Have you ever felt as if life is standing still and you are going no where? I do. I feel as if I’ve been in the midst of my hard season for way too long. I probably have and I need to get over it and move on, but I feel as if my feet are stuck, that I lack purpose and direction, as if I’m simply surviving. But I don’t want to just survive. I want to thrive.I don't want to just survive. I want to thrive. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet
The more I try to get my head above water, the more the dark clouds cover and I crawl into that familiar place that prevents me from feeling any emotion. I walk through my days mechanically, moving from task to task, always the same thing. I lack passion for living and there is no pep in my step.
I honestly don’t know what it’s going to take for me to snap out of it. I feel as if I’ve laid myself down in the miry pit, covered myself with dirt, unwilling to rise above. It’s not that I’m unwilling, but when you have struggled through so much disappointment and your heart is just aching, it get’s hard to remain positive and expect that things to change. I feet beaten down and defeated most days. My husband and I are struggling in our relationship and this leaves me feeling so alone.
So maybe it’s not that life is standing still, maybe I’m the one standing still. Life is moving past me, too fast at times, and I’ve got my feet stuck in this place of despair and disappointment. All I can do is continue to pray and ask God to bring revival and renewal to my heart, heal those places that are hurting and thrust me into the next thing for His glory. Even though I feel incapable, I know that He is more than capable.
Even though I feel incapable, I know that He is more than capable. #glimpsesofhisbeauty Click To Tweet
Have you ever experienced life standing still (or perhaps you were)? I would love for you to share in the comments below.
And now I continue to list the beauty that I’m finding in my every day life.
851. Much needed overtime (God’s provision!)
852. Psalm 147:3
853. Tears that do not go unnoticed by God.
854. 2nd grandson who is about to walk.
855. The wind and how it reminds me of God’s breath.
856. The promise that He will do it again.
857. Luke 12:7
858. His grace is greater than the weight of my circumstances.
859. Psalm 5:12
860. God is always moving, even if I’m not.
The Glimpses link up will open at 12:01 AM (PST) each Monday, and will remain open through Noon on Saturday. I am looking forward to reading your posts and visiting your blogs this week!
It is time to share the glimpses of beauty found this week.
Words written, gratitude given, photos taken, things created — anything that reflects the beauty of God revealed in your ordinary life.
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