Every Friday in 2019 I plan to join Kate and the Five Minute Friday writing community for the Five Minute Friday. This is where we write for just five minutes on a word prompt that Kate releases the night before. If you’ve never joined in, it’s not only fun but great writing practice. Grab the word prompt, set your timer and write whatever comes to mind. Don’t worry about editing or making it perfect. Then link up with Kate and this beautiful community of writers so others can read your words. And don’t forget to visit others. There is nothing like building community through blogging.
The first word prompt for 2019 is Better.
I’ve asked myself this question all too often lately, “When will I feel better?”, “When will things be back to normal?”
After wandering through the wilderness too long, it’s been hard to get my footing, to find that heavenly perspective I once had.After wandering through the wilderness too long, it's been hard to get my footing, to find that heavenly perspective I once had. Click To Tweet
I know what would make me feel better, but sometimes you find yourself in a rut. Sometimes you feel paralyzed, unable to move. Or perhaps it’s fear that holds me back. Too much disappointment can weigh heavily on one’s heart. My heart has been broken in so many pieces. Some have been put back together while others lay in jagged heaps on the floor of my soul.
I know attending church would make me feel better. God’s presence has a way of making me feel better, yet in this season I have chosen to find God through private times of worship, nature, coffee with friends and my own solitude. I have my reasons for staying away. I know I have to heal from these wounds, but I haven’t been able to come to terms with my grief and disappointment just yet.
I know that reading my Bible more regularly would make me feel better. God’s word is nourishing to my soul. If I can be honest without fear of judgement? I haven’t read the actual Bible in a number of months. I’ve read the Bible app, biblical blogs, biblical books; but there is something that has become so hard to open God’s love letter to me. My mind and heart are having a hard time absorbing it’s truths. I’ve started slowly again. It hasn’t been perfect but I know if I keep trying God will meet me and I will fall in love with the Word of God again.
I know that getting rid of the clutter in my home would make me feel better. I want my home to be a place of rest for my body, mind and spirit. Large family living has a way of bringing the clutter. Our home houses 6 adults, one teen and 2 littles 3 and 1. We have a lot of stuff and although the home we rent is large compared to some, we don’t have a place for all the stuff. This weekend I will start by decluttering the clothes the Marie Kondo way. Watch for an upcoming blog post on that.
I know that falling in love with life again will make me feel better. God does promise to give us life abundantly. I realize I have fallen out of love with living and I’m simply existing. I must find it in myself again to reach for the life that God has promised me, even if I can’t see it yet. I don’t want to take anything for granted. I want to notice every detail of my life and find the good in it.I want to notice every detail of my life and find the good in it. Click To Tweet
What about you my friend? How are you doing? I would love for you to share in the comments below.
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