As I enter the second week of my 21 day fast, my heart has been stretched. I feel vulnerable, raw and tender. In this place of voluntary weakness, my desperation for God is something I cannot ignore. My need of Him has risen to the forefront. Apart from Him I can do nothing. This week, I am more aware of the groaning inside my spirit to know this Man Jesus. My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. (Psalm 84:2)
I‘ve grown closer to the Lord this last week, yet there is an internal struggle to stay in the place of prayer. There are so many other things that are demanding my time and attention. As a wife, mother and ministry leader, I cannot ignore these other things. Yet, I understand the importance of continually seeking His face in order to receive the fuel that I need to do these other things well.
One thing I have learned is that my love for God and this 1st commandment lifestyle must be cultivated. In Mike Bickle’s teaching, “Becoming A Person of Extravagant Devotion” he says,
“We must consciously carry our hearts. We must consciously cultivate a spiritual atmosphere in our hearts and in a way that we are more responsive to God. God wants to enable us to be responsive to Him in love. This anointing to be able to respond to God in love is not something