As a writer, you always want to have something to say. But what happens when you run out of words? What happens when you reach with all of your might to find your voice? What happens when the words don’t come, and the voice is mute?
I’ve been on a writing break over the last week. I can’t say that I’ve accomplished all of my goals for the break. But I’m pressing in, leaning into the One who’s voice I long to hear above my own. It’s a hard lesson learned, when you come to the end of yourself and realize you have nothing more to give.
Cause I’d rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way.
(In The Silence – Jason Upton)
God says to come, all who are weary. And so I come. There is still so much noise swirling around me. In this season of tuning out and seeking Him, I am learning a few lessons that I’d like to share with you today. I hope they will somehow encourage your own heart.
I need God.
I cannot walk this journey without Him. I didn’t ever intentionally leave Him behind. But there is a part of me that got so dry, so devoid of joy and pleasure that it’s been like climbing a mountain to find my way back. I wish I could tell you that I have all of my spiritual ducks in a row. I don’t. I am behind in my Bible reading. I have forgotten to journal for the last 5 days. I’ve missed writing down my gratitude list for I don’t know how long. But He reminds me that life isn’t about the doing, it’s about the being.
I feel somewhat robotic, as if I’ve been put on auto pilot, living my life the same way every day, not reaching for the more that I so desire. I need God. I desperately need Him. He is the One who fills my heart with the words to share in this space. Without Him, all I have to give you are empty words.
I’m okay not writing.
I miss writing, I really do. But I’m okay not writing. That may sound strange, coming from a woman who just published a book and has been writing fairly consistently in this space for almost six years. But over the last week as I’ve laid down the expectations I’ve put on myself to come up with fresh content, it’s been somewhat freeing. I know I’ll be back. It won’t be too long. It may look different. But whatever it looks like, I know that it will be okay, because He goes before me to prepare the way and my only goal in life is to follow His leading.
I need quiet.
I am surrounded by noise. My life is noisy. My home is noisy. Work can be noisy. Social media is noisy. I’ve tried to connect over the last week on social media from time to time and what I am learning is that there is so much noise. I’m praying and asking the Lord for new filters. I don’t believe that He wants me to shut it all down entirely. I truly believe great ministry happens through Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and the like. But over the last five years of blogging I’ve followed so many people here, there and everywhere that I can’t possibly keep up. And it creates a little bit of a panic in me. My heart is to encourage, but I know that I can’t encourage everyone, all the time. So I am praying, asking the Lord how to lessen the noise that surrounds me. I’m not sure what that will look like just yet, but I hope it will be a little less noisy.
I have things to say.
God gave me a voice. I understand that it’s to be used for His glory, to encourage others in their journey. I’ve been blessed that even during my writing break I’ve received emails and messages from those who are reading and still being encouraged by what I’ve written in the past. I have things to say, and I believe God has given me the ability to use my voice to encourage others. I am waiting on His timing, on His leading for the next chapter in this journey. I have dreams, so many dreams, but those dreams are empty if He’s not in the middle of them.
I am a work in progress.
I don’t feel stuck in a pit anymore. I’ve come up for air. I can’t say I’ve left the side line just yet. I’m not quite ready to jump full force into writing again. Maybe a few light hearted posts here and there. I still have so much to learn. I am asking God to show me how to bring balance into my day. I still feel a little lopsided. I am thankful that He’s not finished with me yet. I am thankful that you, my precious friends, have extended me grace in order to sit and be still, to refocus and recharge.
I’ll be back.
Unless God tells me otherwise, I will be back. I hope to surprise you with some fun posts soon. I am praying about a 3 day series the week of Valentines. We will see.
On Monday I will reveal my Inspired Blogger for the month of February. You must stop by and meet her!
Be patient with me? And promise to come back?
Thank you friends. You truly are my inspiration and I love you so much!
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